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We are home. Dad went straight to his bed and is sleeping peacefully.

I have to tell you all a great and wonderful story so get ready to laugh instead of crying!

SO…They wanted Dad to pee before he went home and if anyone knows my Father they know that he CANNOT pee in a public place. LOL so he and I are sitting together and the nurse leaves the room after telling him that he can’t go home until he pees. She leaves and he looks at me suddenly with wide eyes and a seriousness that freaked me out and he said, "Go to the bathroom and pee." SO…if you all know me then you know that I went to the bathroom and peed. LOL The nurse sees me come out and I said to Dad, "OK, I cleaned the toilet up for you." Dad gives me a smile and a wink and says to the nurse, "I will go try again." So, we wait and we wait and finally he comes out of the bathroom and tells the nurse that he peed a little. The nurse goes in to check and make sure he did the job. Dad once again looks at me and winks and smiles. The nurse walks out of the bathroom and heads straight out of the room. Suddenly the head nurse comes in and says, "Clifford, did you go pee?" Dad says, "Yep" (again looks at me and winks) Then she says, "Clifford, Did you use toilet paper?" Dad says, "yep". Then she says< "well, we need to see if your bladder is full and we will use this machine to tell us." Dad looks at me and I look at him and suddenly we have both got an OH SHIT look on our face. We knew we got caught. AND of course his bladder was full. Thankfully our nurse TeeTee who is an Angel just laughed at us and said how ornery he is.

We will laugh about this one and I am sure we have more stories to come! He is one thing for sure and that is absolutely hilarious!!!

We are pretty confident that we are headed home. The biggest journey of love will begin! We will make every moment count and Dad can’t wait to climb into bed with Mom and his dogs! Oh how happy that makes us all!

Dad had a rough night. He is in pain from the Biopsy and very sick to his stomach. They wanted to do another scan of his brain this morning so we will know later how things looked. They are checking to see if the cancer has grown any more. We thought he would get to go home today, but he is still sick so it won’t be today. We will hope for tomorrow.

It is amazing how God gives us the strength we need when we need it. He LOVES reading all of your posts. It has meant a great deal to him. This is a website that he is very proud of and to see all of you on here has helped give us all strength.

Thank you from all us and most of all from Dad.

LOVE NEVER FAILS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This morning Dad will have another MRI so they can see where to do the Biopsy. The Biopsy is scheduled for 2:00 today and we will always hope for a miracle. You never know with Dad. He is in a class of his own. We think he will go home tomorrow and we know he is thrilled at the thought of that.  Faith, hope and Love is keeping us all together and keeping us strong. All of your comments have lifted our spirits and it shows us that our Father has touched many lives.

Thank you and we love you all!

Hello everybody this is his grandson speaking to you from the hospital..He recently had me write a blog for all of you to show his greatest love. He will be writing again tomorrow for all of you.
First off i want to let everybody know that my grandfather means the world to me. I could not imagine my life without him he has taught me so many things in the 18 years that i have lived. It did not matter the situation i was in whether i was right or wrong he was always there to give me his amazing words of advice. He is my grandfather, my best friend, and he is truely my hero! I know God has a plan for him and i know he is going to heaven i just don’t want him to go this soon. I remember i would always try to beat him to be king of the court because he would always beat me. He would always be there to give me his helpful words of advice whether it was a problem with a girl or if i had a question about god. He has taught me so much in the 18 years that i have lived and i can not thank him enough. He is truely perfect in my eyes and deep in my heart he has not been given enough time in this world. He is the best grandfather and best friend i have ever had and he has touched so many lives and it’s amazing to see how many people have joined to speak to him and all the uplifting comments everybody has left. I have never met any of you but your comments go straight to my heart because i know he has touched all of you in some way. I love him wit all my heart and i know that God will take care of him and he will be watching over our family and each and every single one of you. He is my HERO!

His Grandson,
Josh Thompson

News of my death has been greatly exatterated! Yes I do have brain cancer and yes the news is bleak. But I am blessed of having my grandson type for me sharing my words of wisdom. I have been sharing my faith with everyone who comes in the room, and here is what my faith is. First of all, I believe God is perfect. Secondly I believe the process that we are in is perfect, so with that kind of faith how could I possible doubt what is happening to me right now. I know I will have a perfect outcome! I want to let all my boldgrace friends know how much I love them, how much I appreciate their sincere and genuine prayers.

In his perfect love,
Cliff

I wish I had better news for all of you today, but unfortunately it is not. My father Cliff has Cancer on his brain. Because of where the Tumors are located they cannot operate. All we can do right now is wait on a biopsy to find out exactly which type of cancer it is. It is one of two. Bad or really bad. The choices are slim. Basically all we are waiting for is to find out how much time we have with our Father. He told me to tell all of you that he loves you all very much and that this is what he has waited for all his life and he is not afraid. I know he is not afraid. This is Gods perfect process. For now we wait some more and do our best to enjoy each second. I love you all and I know we are in your thoughts. Thank you, Mindy

I never thought as a child that anything bad could happen to my Dad. As a child I thought my hero would live forever. As a child you know you are safe while being held in your Daddy’s arms. Is it selfish to think that way? Some children in this world never know what it is like to even have a Father. Some children lose their parents at a young age and can understand the pain early on, but today for me I am 33 and I am waiting to find out if my best friend, my hero, my Father is going to die of cancer and my heart is aching in a way that I have never felt before.

My Dad is famous for always quoting the following:

Love is patient. Love is kind. Love is not arrogant or rude. Love does not insist on its own way. It is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice at wrong, but rejoices in the right. LOVE BEARS ALL THINGS, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never ends.

1 Corinthians 13: 4-8

My Fathers love for life will never fail. It will never end. Whatever the outcome of all this is I know one thing for certain at this very moment… He has already found his peace. He has always known all of the things God meant for him to understand about his life and he will be OK no matter where this road leads him. My Father knows that God is with him and has always been with him. My Father is perfect in my eyes and has always been perfection in Gods. God made him exactly the way he wanted him. My Father is a man of love. His light shines so bright. His energy is so strong that I can feel him from miles and miles away. He is my Angel. He is my hero and he is the most amazing man I have ever known.

On June 15, 2004 I wrote him a letter for Fathers Day. I found it a couple of weeks ago going through some of Mom and Dads old pictures. This is what I wrote to him:

Fathers day is a day when I get to tell you how important you are, but I think you already know how important you are to all of us. Every morning I wake up and think of you. I tell God every morning that he blessed me with an angel. You are so special. You always have the right things to say, you always know how to keep the peace, you know how to teach us all to have peace and I am so proud to have you as my Daddy.

Now that I have a little girl of my own I know how hard it is to be a parent. It is the toughest job I have ever had. It is an important job. I have to be responsible for her life. I have to teach her to be a good person. I have to teach her to love herself no matter what the world may do to her. I am so fortunate that I can pass along the skills to live life the way God wants us to and I have you to thank for that. You gave me a freedom to think for myself. You taught me to always be proud of who I am and to believe in the choices I make for myself. You gave me such wonderful gifts. You gave me Dink and you know why you gave me Dink? I watch you love my mother unconditionally. When it was time to choose someone for myself I found someone who loves me the way you love my mother. This journey hasn’t been easy and I have made mistakes, but when I reached into my soul for what I knew was right I finally looked to your guidance and found the one person I feel I will grow old with. Thanks Daddy.

You may not believe that you are a real Angel and I am not sure why you wouldn’t believe it yourself. Maybe you don’t want to seem self absorbed, but Dad…you and I both know you are an Angel. How many people in this world can be so close to perfection? How many of us can stand true to our faiths? How many of us can be so kind as often as you are? Angels are real. You have been brought to this world so many times that you have finally got it right on this trip. To me you have been an Indian, a brown man, a Jew, a woman, you have been so many things that you finally understand what our point on this earth is.

I just want to end this with something you once sent me not long ago. "remember, you are being moved through the journey of life by a power you can not see. Your destination is greatness beyond your comprehension. Your purpose must be your passion for life. And peace is your resting place at the end of the day".

I love you Dad.

WITHOUT FAITH IT IS IMPOSSIBLE TO PLEASE GOD!

My take on the above words are quite personal and have nothing to do with my biblical knowledge, rather it has everything to do with how life has molded me and brought me to the place I currently am.

You see, I believe I am God dwelling in an earthly tent.  I take very serious the idea that I am made in God’s IMAGE but for most of my life I allowed religion to tarnish that simple faith that the Father is in me and I in the Father and nothing can ever threaten the relationship that we have together.

Yes, Jesus had this simple FAITH.  HE knew He was perfectly joined to the Father of all and I believe He came to show the rest of us that we when we too hold the same faith that he had we will be pleased with whatever circumstance we find ourselves in.

On the flip side, if one continues to think they must do something or be something other then what they already are they will not feel pleasing to God or themselves (which is really the same thing)

Without Faith it is impossible to please God.

My thoughts on this coming soon.