It Is And Always Was Perfect!
I truly believe that we have no idea what our faith is until it has been tested. I am reading a book by Dr. Wayne W. Dyer called, "Change Your Thoughts- Change Your Life" Living the Wisdom of the Tao. This is another book that my Dad loved and I realize now after reading it that it was probably one of his favorites.
My Dad would often repeat this saying from the book: "This is a perfect process and it is and always was perfect." I understood this or so I thought I did until my faith was tested with his diagnosis of Glioblastoma. Our lives were turned upside down and inside out. While it has only been 4 months since he has passed and still very fresh in our minds it FEELS like it has been a lifetime without him. This is where my faith has been tested because I can’t fathom living the rest of my life without him. I am so angry I can’t even see straight. I am angry at the world for moving forward. I am angry that I have to live with this pain. I am angry for My Mother who now lives without him and misses him dearly. I am angry that all we have are memories. I am angry. I am angry. I am angry. WHY?? Why do we love each other soo much only for it to cause pain in the end? Why should I love if it hurts this bad? What is the point?
THE POINT IS THIS: IT IS AND ALWAYS WAS PERFECT! The anger, the pain, the memories, the love…all of this is the magic of who I am and where I come from. Everything I do, everything I say is exactly the way it is meant to be. All of these things make up ME and I believe we are a part of each other and a part of this earth whether we are together physically or spiritually. I cannot change the process of perfection.
In this book on page 94 is one of my favorite verses…#20 and it says:
Give up learning and you will be free from all your cares. What is the difference between yes and no? What is the difference between good and evil? Must I fear what others fear? Should I fear desolation when there is abundance? Should I fear darkness when that light is shining everywhere? In Spring, some go to the park and climb the terrace, but I alone am drifting, not knowing where I am. Like a newborn babe before it learns to smile, I am alone, without a place to go. Most people have too much; I alone seem to be missing something. Mine is indeed the mind of an ignoramus in its unadulterated simplicity. I am but a guest in this world. While others rush about to get things done, I accept what is offered. I alone seem foolish, earning little, spending less. Other people strive for fame; I avoid the limelight, preferring to be left alone. Indeed, I seem like an idiot; no mind, no worries. I drift like a wave on the ocean. I blow as aimless as the wind. All men settle down in their grooves; I alone am stubborn and remain outside. But wherein I am most different from others is in knowing to take sustenance from the great Mother!
I don’t have to seek for truth, knowledge and understanding of this magic. It lives inside of me just as it did with my Father. "I accept what is offered." The night Dad died was PERFECT and BEAUTIFUL. It was a mystical night. It was quiet and peaceful watching his soul go on. It was a night that changed our lives forever. I have never seen magic like that before. This life has and always will be beautifully mystical to me. I believe that my Father was reborn into the earth that night. I accept that he is physically gone from my life. This is the perfect process. Just as my Dad did not fear this nor will I fear the process of living without him. This is the way it is meant to be and I am learning to let go and let God. This life will take me where it wants to. I will not compromise who I am for the sake of anyone else. I jokingly said once to my brother-in-law that I hear voices inside my head talking to me. He has never let me live that one down, but in all seriosness I DO! I believe it is my spirit, my inner being, my true self aching to be free.
What I want to know is are you willing to let go and let God. Are you willing to be free?
I want to leave you with one of my favorite quotes from Meredith Jordan
"Whatever you have forgotten, you can remember. Whatever you have buried you can unearth. If you are willing to look deep into your own nature, if you are willing to peel away the layers of not-self you have adopted in making your way through the tribulations of life, you will find that your true self is not as far removed as you think."
I love you all!
Until next time…
I swear, you truely are an angle! So beautiful, so honest , so true…
The beginning of wisdom is the fear of God (Prov 9:10). The end or depth of wisdom is intimate love relationship with God in which there is no fear.
wow
love always
I have been trying to understand the word “Fear”, it is all through the bible.
If you began your journey were i did without fear, you would be wishing you had left a trail of bread crumbs so you could find your way back to your started.
How can a God loving man also be a a God fearing man? Can you really love a God you need to fear? Don’t make sense dose it. As i tried to interpret the things i read i realize more and more that there is not much more i need to know,then i already knew.
As i read all these things about how i should fear God for one reason after another, i began to think holycrapolie what have i been thinkin, I’m in trouble, but my heart told me, what it has told me for a life time, that “I am as good as all”.
I mean come on, who could get proverbs, there’s a part of me that thinks solomon was messing with us. Even batman couldn’t figure out a joker like solomon.
One of the things i came to understand is that we are constantly screwed up by the interpretation of words, such as Fear, It seem that the english word Fear is Revere in Greek, hummm…..
I am still sure of only one thing, that my journey began without fear and it will end there.
love always
I have always taken it to mean that at the end of the day, you must face yourself and live with whatever consequences you have caused, so you should do what you know in your heart is right regardless of how others may perceive it or try to influence you. I also think it means that each of us is a valid individual in his/her own right so there is no point in trying to “be someone” other than who you really are, behaving pretentiously or hiding behind images that society might be accepting of.
Read this twice
love always
“The beginning of wisdom is the fear of God (Prov 9:10). The end or depth of wisdom is intimate love relationship with God in which there is no fear.
wow”
Hi Doug
This verse has been one of my lifelines of recent years. “The fear of God is the beginning of wisdom” is the way I know it. When I feel afraid of God I remind myself “The fear of God is the BEGINNING of wisdom”. Meaning to me there must be MUCH MORE to this journey than the fear of God. It gives me some peace.
Thanks for reminding me.
I would love to get the stage you are at where I see the end or depth of wisdom as intimate love relationship with God in which there is no fear.
Love from
Julia
Me too Julia! It is a process and I do feel I am headed in the love direction but that ole fear still grabs me from time to time!
Excellent book Mindy! The “Tao Di Ching” has much to offer us, just as you have. Thanks for this post.
Thanks DonR!! I do love this book. I am blown away at how much more relaxed I am when I walk through this life having faith that this process I am in is perfect. I am not worried about my next step.
Hey Mindy. Your post reminds me of “Watching the Wheels” by John Lennon. He said:
People say I’m crazy doing what I’m doing,
Well they give me all kinds of warnings to save me from ruin,
When I say that I’m ok they look at me kind of strange,
Surely your not happy now you no longer play the game,
I’m just sitting here watching the wheels go round and round,
I really love to watch them roll,
No longer riding on the marry-go-round,
I just had to let it go….
I can see your Dad relating to “not playing the game” anymore. It is so peaceful to just be.
I have recently finished reading the book called The Shack by WM. Paul Young. If you haven’t read this book, you need to check it out. It goes along perfectly with what has been said in this post.
What incredible words from John Lennon and so true. People really do think you are crazy! I am tired of playing the game
Michelle,
I will check that book out. Thank you
When time takes control of you, when fear starts to travel through your vains, when you start believing in the world rather than in your life…it is time to take a deep breath and let it all go without hesitation. Lay your head down on your pillow at night and sleep. Don’t think about sleeping just go to bed because you are tired. Simply shut your eyes. Shut your thoughts off. Let go of all the thoughts of the day, of the past and of the future. No worries about what the day was and no worries about tomorrow because it will be exactly what it is suppose to be and it was exactly the way is was suppose to be. Just sleep and give yourself to the night. Sleep tight
My true self is the problem.
God wants to kill me off, and give me a new nature…His.
He does this through His Word of promises and in baptism and holy communion.
Romans 6 tells us how He does this in baptism.
Thank God, I was baptized into Christ upon his death, and therefore absolved of sin.
I slept like a baby.
Love always
Steve,
Your true self is not a problem. Your true self is the Shekinah of the soul.
No wonder people fear God when you write things like, “God wants to kill me off.” and he doesn’t want to GIVE you a new nature?…he already GAVE it to you according to how I interpret the bible. He gave it to you through the death of Jesus Christ and the death was at the cross. You say he gives you new nature through “His word of promises and in baptism and holy communion? Paul says in Chapter 6 vs 4: We were therefore buried with him through baptism into death in order that, just as Christ was raised from the dead through the glory of the Father, we too may live a new life.
Paul also said in chapter 6 verse 1 & 2
What shall we say, then? Shall we go on sinning so that grace may increase? By no means! We died to sin; how can we live in it any longer?
In this verse Paul is telling us, “hey stupid now that we are under Grace does that mean we go on sinning?” NO! How can you go on sinning when it no longer exists? DUHH! I think that one is pretty easy to understand.
These verses tell me that sin no longer exists and my old self was buried with Jesus through baptism into death so that my new self could be raised up with him from the dead through the glory of the Father so that WE may live a new life. We have already been baptized. Why do I need to continue with this baptism and sin stuff? It is done…finished….over. Our old self died and our new self lives!
Chapter 6 verse14: For sin shall not be your master, because you are not under law, but under grace.
This tells me that I am no longer under the man made religion (the law) which I believe was a sin to be under. Religion is not my master. I am under Grace.
“Why do I need to continue with this baptism and sin stuff? It is done…finished….over. Our old self died and our new self lives!”
It’s not over. St. Paul speaks about “those of us who are being saved”.
It is an ongoing relationship. Believers live the lives of repentance and forgiveness…over and over and over. The same as do members of any family.
We keep sinning, so we need to keep hearing that we are forgiven. That’s what Holy Communion is all about.
Jesus said that “if you do not eat my body and drink my blood, then you have no life in Me.”
If you believe the way you do Steve, you had better hope that you ask for forgiveness just after your last sin , and just before your last breath.
Love always.
Romans 5 verses 12-14
12Therefore, just as sin entered the world through ONE man, and death through sin, and in this way DEATH CAME TO ALL MEN, BECAUSE ALL SINNED— 13for before the law was given, sin was in the world. BUT SIN IS NOT TAKEN INTO ACCOUNT WHEN THERE IS NO LAW. 14Nevertheless, death reigned from the time of Adam to the time of Moses, even over those who did not sin by breaking a command, as did Adam, WHO WAS A PATTERN OF THE ONE TO COME.
Steve,
It amazes me that I can write a post about another book and yet you still have to refer to the bible for answers? What is it that you are really WANTING to write to us here? We can quote verses from the Bible and go back and forth back and forth all day, but can you quote any other book that does not quote the bible and possibly quotes your life today?
Doug,
All my sins have been forgiven, past present and future.
But I AM in a relationship,, am I not? I have certain things that I want to do in a relationship, and asking for forgiveness when I mess up is one of them. And God wants to tell me that He loves me and forgives me, even though that is a given.
Then we don’t take Him for granted and we don’t turn the Christian faith into a ‘me’ alone project.
Mindy,
True. In Christ we have no sin. But that is the theological end view.
Jesus also tells us that “not one jot or tittle of the law will be done away with until the New Kingdom comes’.
We have to deal with the law in the here and now and suffer the consequences.
As a parent does not abandon his kids when they mess up, so does God not abandon us.
But as a parent wants the child to admit wrongdoing and repent…so does God want that of us.
The title of your blog is ‘Bold Grace’. An idea from the Bible.
When a book you speak of seems to contradict things in scripture, I feel bringing that fact up is pertinent.
If I was wrong in that assumption, please forgive me.
Steve,
The new Kingdom came…a long long time ago. What do we have to suffer from? Suffering is no more. You may WANT to live and abide by religious laws, but that doesn’t mean you have to. You are right about one thing, “As a parent does not abandon his kids when they mess up, so does God not abandon us.’ Their are no “buts”.
You speak of facts? Do you really think you know what a contradiction is? What you read in the Bible is read differently by millions of people worldwide and has for centuries. Obviously no one certain person has it right or we would all be one big united organized religion. Maybe we could call our organization THE WORLD? I don’t know, but my point is that I get so many wonderful things from so many wonderful people who have written books. I take what I want from them and move to the next. I don’t need to defend them as you do your Bible. Open your mind and gather all of the wonderful possibilities that Jesus has given us in our new Kingdom. Steve, you are a good man. You are and always have been perfect. Stop trying to be good…you are good.
Steve,
I am not sure where the title came from, but isn’t it a beautiful name? Oh, and I also wanted to say that as a parent I do not look at the things my child does as mistakes. I see them as steps in her journey.
Mindy, it is a beautiful title!
One question, do you ever correct your child as she takes steps in her journey? Or is he/she on their own?
Mindy,
I am not good. I am a mixed bag, like all of us. I make mistakes. I sin. I do not love God my neighbor as myself, because I am more concerned about ‘me’.
But, God is gracious. He forgives. But He still wants us to be a lot more selfless, and listen to Him.
Well Steve, We will have to agree to disagree because I believe you are good. You are a beautifully mixed up bag of emotions which is what you are suppose to be. You are not of sin, but of grace and you aren’t concerned about just you. You are concerned about me and I love you for that. When I listen to myself I am listening to the voice of God. When I do something that might hurt myself my mixed up bag of emotions are the gifts that I have to feel what is right and wrong for me. I don’t believe I make mistakes. I make decisions and those decisions will lead me to something greater each time I make one.
When my daughter takes steps in her journey, when she makes decisions I am there to support her. Only she can listen to the God within. only she can feel what is inside of her and how to handle her decisions. I help guide her by giving advice, but for example: if she wants to wear shorts on a cold winters day then I don’t stop her. I advise her. I say, “I don’t think that is a good idea because you are going to freeze.” She will probably argue with me and say, “no, I like to wear shorts in the winter.” I know through experience that she will probably freeze her little butt of, but she will either like it by the end of the day or she won’t. She will know at the end of the day wether or not it was a good decision for her or not, but her decisions are not right or wrong they are exactly what they are suppose to be…a perfect process.
This will be so much harder for me to explain then it is for me to feel. I am a man who has thought with the mind of an ordinary man for 60 year. I am basically a good man, by most standards. I make decision based on what i perceive to be right and wrong, good and bad. What I realize is that as long as i think with this mind i will be a sinner at times.
What i also believe is that the kingdom of heaven is within me know, and when i Think from my heart (My inner man) I never sin, and therefore i have no need to repent or ask forgiveness.
I hope as time goes by i will think more and more from my heart ( my inner man), but for for now i feel safe knowing, that by the grace of God and his unconditional and limitless love for me, that i am saved.
love always
Steve Wrote:
Jesus also tells us that “not one jot or tittle of the law will be done away with until the New Kingdom comes’.
Steve,
Do we still sacrifice animals? if not then the NEW KINGDOM Has come!
This IS ALREADY a NEW EARTH! God no longer relates to mankind though mans words actions or deeds but through the blood of Christ which covers ALL MANKIND regardless of their acceptance of it.
Steve Wrote:
When a book you speak of seems to contradict things in scripture, I feel bringing that fact up is pertinent.
What is Scripture to you Steve? Do you believe different than Jesus? Or do you believe Scripture is more than what Jesus said it was?
Or more than Paul said it was?
Selah
Geo
A SUN SO RADIANT SO TRUE
IT BLESSES AN EARTH
THAT SEES NOT ITS WORTH,
MOM DAD FAMILY CANT SEE
WHY THEY SHOULD CRY
THE MOMENT HAS PASTED
LIFE-DEATH AT ONE TIME
IS THE LOVE FOR ONE
WORTH A LIFE TIME,
TONIGHT IS THE MOMENT
TO GREIVE WHAT IS LOST,
OR IS IT THE TIME TO ASK,
TO PONDER THE COST,
HEAVEN AND EARTH
A UNIVERSE OF SEPARATION
ONLY FELT BETWEEN YOUR HEART,
AND THE EYES OF DECEPTION,
BETWEEN YOUR LIES AND YOUR CRYS.
I CRY FOR THE SUN OF LOVE
ONLY PLEADING FOR ACCEPTANCE,
ONLY ASKING FOR A CHANCE,
NEVER FALTERING IN HIS DANCE:
I LOVE MY FIRST SON….
God doesn’t need to punish us for the consequences of our live, we do a good enough job of that ourselves.
Love always
The kingom of God, is like a man finding a treasure in a field, then giving all that he has to own that field.
What would you give everything for? I believe standing in the middle of that field is Jesus Christ. I also believe that the treasure is you, as a gift to God.
Love always
Mindy, I understand what you are saying but I’ll play devils advocate here, what if what she wanted to do was to play in the street, would you then let her decide for her self or would you say absolutley not. I’m just curious how you would answer this because I do believe at some point as parents we do have to tell our kids no. Thanks.
Lisa, Please take no offense to this, but I think that is a pretty silly question. What do you think a parent should do in that situation? When my daughter is at an age where she is still in the process of understanding what decisions are I am not going to just let my 2 year old walk into the street and hope and pray a car swirves around her. I help her become aware of the dangers like that. I think we are comparing apples to oranges here…don’t ya think? We are talking about how I don’t believe we make mistakes…we make decisions. My decision was to have a child and with that decision I feel I have to guide my child as she grows and along the way she will do the same for me.
Yes, I agree it is a very silly question. Point bing sometimes God does do for us what we can’t do for ourselves but as you said, probably not needed for this particular conversation. Love ya
Doug, you saId, “I make decisions based on what I perceive to be right and wrong, good and bad. What I realize is that as long as I think with this mind I will be a sinner at times.
What I also believe is that the kingdom of heaven is within me now, and when I Think from my heart (My inner man) I never sin, and therefore I have no need to repent or ask forgiveness.
I hope as time goes by i will think more and more from my heart”
You have indeed found the treasure hidden in the clay vessel (your body). I am thrilled for you Doug – so many wonderful things will be opening up for you now that you’ve found your ‘knowing place’.
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It is called by many names each one bringing a different facet of this wonderful truth that many of us, like you, are beginning to discover – because this is the time when the light(understanding) is being switched on. We call it our ‘heart’, Paul calls it our new man, but there are many other names that show us that it is where the spirit of REALITY dwells – our closet, the inner sanctuary, the Holy of Holies, the Christ mind and the anointing. Many literal pictures have been preserved over time for us to see this truth with our spiritual eyes, and as we read about them, the meanings are lifted up from this world level (the literal or physical) to a higher realm, the realm of spirit. Take these for example, Noah’s ark, the ark of the covenant, and Solomon’s temple. These were physical to help us understand the spiritual. The picture that best shows us our present situation is the first chapter of Genesis – here it is an ‘expanse’ called Heaven. The light in the old testament is called ‘day’, but in the NT is called Jesus.
The kingdom of God, is like a man finding a treasure in a field, then giving all that he has to own that field.
What would you give everything for? I believe standing in the middle of that field is Jesus Christ. I also believe that the treasure is you, as a gift to God.
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In this picture Doug, the field is us, and the treasure in it is the Christ Mind, his LIFE he gave at Calvary. How much the Father loves us to give his ALL, his only son, that we may find our life in him, the Saviour of the world.
Audrey, the first time i read your comment’s i thought you were speaking from a different world then i live in. I would have normally just dismissed your thoughts, but a small part of me said “Hummm?”. I am listening to the “Hummm” in me …
Love the “Hummm?” always
Geo,
I believe that the whole of the Bible is Holy Scripture.
And that it contains God’s Law and His Gospel.
The law being all the demands that our existence places upon us, anf the gospel being God’s forgiveness for our not living up to those demands.
The cermonial law is done away with (in Christ), but the law of the 10 Commandments and all that stems from those laws, in addition to our having to be good for something in this life, is still in effect.
Humm, i read today that the intelligence of man was diminished by sin. That Adam was able to name all the animals in one day before he sinned, and afterwords couldn’t remember the name of his cat.
I may not have got that qoute exactly right, but i do believe that the day we find ourselves perfect in the heart of GOD, we are smarter then the day before.
Love always
My thoughts tonight are about the difference between knowledge and wisdom. We have many come to this site that are very smart, very knowledgeable, they will share with you the chapter and verse of why you need to be more then you are. They will tell you how you are disappointing God or that you dont respect him enough. There desire is pure, it is to make you feel worthy. There knowledge is impressive, there agenda is true in there mind, but there message lack the wisdom of a heart that knows a God of unconditional love.
Love always
The Quran must be as confusing as any bible written, but thank God we have great men to clarify it for us.
“Dr. Izzat Attya who is the head of the department of Hadith in Al-Azhar, which is the world’s most prestigious Islamic University, issued a fatwa, or religious opinion. The fatwa declared that, it is legitimate for a working Muslim woman to breast-feed her male colleague to avoid the sin of ‘khulwa’ (staying with a stranger in one room). Similar fatwas had been issued in the past by many sheikhs in many Middle-Eastern countries, but this is the first time it comes from a high level academic of Al-Azhar.”
I wounder if McDonald’s will add this to there employee policy manual?
lOVE ALWAYS
Doug,
LOL!!
Doug, earlier on you quoted from Proverbs the saying -”the fear of God is the beginning of wisdom”. That word ‘fear’ is better explained by ‘reverence’, and true reverence is a heart-felt emotion – this backs up what you are discovering, that wisdom comes from the heart and knowledge from the head. They are two entirely different worlds or kingdoms. The lower (head-knowledge) cannot enlighten the higher(heart wisdom), in fact the natural man has no ability to understand and thinks it is foolishness. But the higher realm can reach down and lift up the lower to its higher understanding. That is why the truth learned from our heart streams like a river of life, energizing not only our whole body but others as well.
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Somewhere else you wrote that when man ate of the ‘fruit’ from the knowledge tree(thought-patterns), his intellect or ability to ascertain truth was diminished. This is very true and in that word TRUTH is a root verb ‘to remember’. That is enormously revealing to me and excites me deep inside. The reason being that when that first man was created – the only begotten Son, (the Christ), we, (all of us), were created IN HIM, as gods. We are only now waking from the Adamic trance to discover who we REALLY are and that our REAL identity is not of this world (of flesh and blood, slaves of sin) but of spirit – slaves of righteousness.
The “good” man in the parable of the Pharisee and the publican was the one who did not go away justified.
The one who went away justified (says jesus) is the one who knew that he was not what God intended for him to be, and that he was not good.
I think that the law of God is intended to give us some humility, when we come to the realization that we have blown it.
I think that is what Jesus is after in us.
Steve – You are right – the Pharisee thought (head-thinking) that he was ‘good’ by DOING all the things that MAN thinks are righteous and look so good from the outside. (to please the God of his imagination who is OUTSIDE – ‘up in the sky’), but the publican knew (heart-wisdom) that by his own works (that ‘flesh-life’ driven by man’s perception of what is good/bad), he had no merit no matter how hard he tried, so being willing to accept the ‘free gift’ (life of Christ within) he was exalted (lifted up to the higher realm of the spirit – our heart). This is a great picture of the difference between the two worlds and how we can only be ‘lifted up’ if we are willing to humble ourselves (metanoio – think from our heart instead of our head.
Thanks Steve
I know that some of the things i talk about are hard for my dear family to hear. I speak of memories and feelings that are heart wrenching. For the pain i cause i am sorry, but it is because of that pain that I have, and they have that i am driven to understand myself.
Prior to lost of my brother, i would have told you that some of my best
characteristics were that i could sense a bull shitter like a hummingbird can sense the nectar of a flower, that i could feel a liar quicker then a coon dog feels fleas on a august night. I’m not telling you i wasn’t a good man, a good husband, a good father, a good provider I think to the best of my ability i was all of that to, but i can also tell you that unless you were family, i probably would share the color of my eyes with you unless you were looking into them.
I had a brother, that came from the same blood as me, that we ran the same cornfields, wrestled in the same snow, fought the same bees, and i thought understood love in the same way.
He taught me a lesson in his death that i think i could never have learn any other way.
I dont know how most people would react, to walk into a medical facility with what you would think to be a minor problem, a simple headache, and then a few hours later have a Messenger of Death approach you with the words “I’m sorry sir, but what you have is terminal”. I know my first reaction would be denial, the doctor is wrong, the doctor is inept. How long do i have? Are you sure?
My brothers first concern was for the Messenger of Death. His first reaction, his first concern, was to tell the doctor “Its alright doctor, I have been ready for this a long time.”
Life-death at one time, a moment between heartbeats, it was in that moment i knew there was more.
“No person can claim to be the founder of religion nor can anyone claim to be the author of the bible. People can only write and speak on behalf of God.”
I THINK I JUST DID.
Love always
I listened to a pray today that was given at the inaugural for our president. He choose at the end of his prayer to invite the audience to end it the way they would normally. He include all, not just the ones that end there prayer, “In Jesus name amen”. Pretty cool huh.
Love always
THERE IS A TIME
THAT YOU KNOW, THAT YOUVE DONE MORE HARM THEN GOOD
THERE IS A TIME
TO FEEL WHAT IS RIGHT FOR YOU
THERE IS A TIME
WHEN THE TRUTH IS NOT CLEAR
THERE IS A TIME
TO BELIEVE WITH EYES FULL OF TEARS
THERE IS A TIME
TO LOVE MORE THEN A HEART CAN BEAR IT
THERE IS A TIME
TO UNDERSTAND MORE THAN U CAN SEE
THERE IS A TIME
TO LET ANGELS DANCE ALONE
THERE IS A TIME
TO SAY GOODBYE
GOODBYE
love always
Doug said:
“No person can claim to be the founder of religion nor can anyone claim to be the author of the bible. People can only write and speak on behalf of God.”
I THINK I JUST DID.
I think you just did too doug and do so very well! The way Cliff handled his death and life is about the best lesson ANYONE can learn and even though I wasn’t as close to him as you, he taught me an awesome lesson as well as do you. Please continue to share here. It helps me so very much. Just want you to know that I read every word. I might not always comment but I hear you and I love you!
One thing to add, it is interesting how we can come from the same blood and be alike in some things and so different in others but can always, always learn from one another. One not being better or worse, good or bad, just different.
I listen to every word also and commenting is almost out of the question for me but I am a good listener. Doug, your thoughts are awesome!!! Audrey, I wish I knew you outside of here and so many others also. Lisa, I am so glad to have you here on Boldgrace!
Love Never Fails!
Nancy, Mindy has my e-mail, I’d like to know you better too!
I sure hope Dougs not saying goodbye to boldgrace. We need you Dougie! You have so very much to share and offer!
Nancy, I love you so much. I’m glad that you see my thoughts as awesome. You are my little Diana Ross girl. I love knowing that you have a protective shield, a maternal bubble of four. I to will alawys be part of that shield also.
There is a time when you cant tell if your scratching your wounds,or licking them. There is a time that you dont know if what your doing is for yourself, or for what you lost, but what you can always know, there will never be a moment in your life that you are not protected and loved.
Love always Sis
Id like to share one story about Nancy before i go.
When she was first dating Cliff she went with him to danville, ill to a Christmas party. We all had to sleep on the floor, she had this big bouffant hair dew, and couldn’t find a way to lay down without crushing it. As i remember it, she looked as good the next morning as she did the night before.
What a woman will do for the man they love, still amazes me.
LOVE ALWAYS
They say a drunkard cant find the kingdom of heaven, should i give up my search?
Who is better then me?
WHO has more to share?
who is worthy..
WHOS HEART BEATS louder then mine
who’s love is greater
whose tears are wetter then Gods
what God do they know….
love alawys
Nancy, you are so special, so perfect, so wonderful. Just know you have two brothers that will cradle ur heart, with our last breath.
love ya sis
THERE IS NEVER AN EASY WAY TO SAY GOODBYE.
I love you Doug! You are an incredible man and your words here have made me feel so connected to you. It was a way for me to feel connected to my Dad. I hated that I had to drive an hour to see him, but I also loved knowing that I could feel him by reading his words every day. I feel that way about you now.