A Few Words from The Rev. Peyton
Since it’s Sunday I thought a few words from the Rev. might do us good!
By the way Hazelbaker Family they are from Indianapolis, Indiana
GO REV. !
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This is band is one of my new favorites!
Peace
Geo
I swear I think I saw Mindy dancing in the audience, love it Geo!
L ove always
Doug
I would like to have a gathering with these guys there!
Whatta you think?
Peace
Geo
Geo, sounds like a full bodied beer and peanut party, that a country boy like me wouldn’t wanta miss. Ill be there with my circle of angels!
Love always
I have tried to give some thought today about my journey thus far. Where it begin, and why, where it will end, and why. What did i expect, and what did i want from it. I don’t know that i have an absolute answer to any of these questions in my mind, but i know i have been amazed at every turn in my path, and I am somewhere I couldn’t have imagined traveling to, and i feel like I’m not even close to the first rest stop, the one you get to just before you say “are we there yet dad”?
My journey I feel is somewhat unique from many that follow this site. Mine didn’t begin because i felt an overwhelming need to leave any church or organization. Mine didn’t begin because i felt an oppressive God of laws that i couldn’t live by. Mine begin with any real expectation of God or religion, God and religion was a couple of things that i figured i would think about some other time, like maybe 30 sec before my last breath i would say a little forgive me kinda prayer.
My journey began when i looked into the eyes of a man who spoke of a God of love, that offered him so much joy that he accepted his impend death with a smile and a peace that he shared with all that he spoke to with his last breath. A God of love, that offered an infallible truth that there is nothing to fear, not even death.
My journey began to try and understand what this man knew at the end of his journey…
I’m not there yet, but i haven’t even wore out my first pair of moccasins yet either.
Love always
My principle belief most of my life was to live and let live. Don’t get in my way and i wont get in yours, but if you choose as a nation, as a group, or as an individual, to impede or control my right or my families to live free and at peace, then i would do anything i need to do to stop you.
I believed war was the only way that those things could be preserved. If we can annihilate all those that believe different, only then can we all(that’s left) live in peace. wow
My dad thought that, he joined a righteous war, my brother and i believed that, we joined a righteous war, my nephew believed that he joined a righteous war. Will my precious perfect star believe that, and join his righteous war?
Is there anything, any group, any organization, any religion, any nation,that can change this ongoing mentality?
There is no nation that is based on a religion of laws that can do it. There is no organization that believes that one person is more righteous then another can do it, but it will happen.
It will happen when all mankind realizes that there is no COMING OF THE LORD, it will happen when all mankind realizes that they have been redeemed, the devil lost, the laws are gone, and the prophecies have been fulfilled.
Just take a minute and think about an earth,(that God so loves) that all mankind lives in, that all are redeemed. A world that has no reason to kill over Gods love.
There would be no wars, no hunger, no poverty, imagine a world that believes that all are redeemed, a world of oneness.
What other kind of earth (that God so loves) would he want?
It will happen one by one, i just hope my precious perfect star sees it.
Love always
MC, wants to know if in this new perfect world I speak of if there will be mice that taste like chicken….Dam stupid cat.. he is so short sighted, makes me wounder if all of Gods creation was perfect! I mean really did we need cats?
love always
Now Mc is sitting there all insulted, he has this puffy lip thing he dose with his little white face, he says he wants the last word tonight.. geeez
He says:
“If you don’t want red stains in your white fur in the morning, then find a reason to stop killing”
Dam cat..
love always
my last thought tonight was on a mothers love, but it got deleted, so ill try and share it again when my heart can take it.
love always
Geo,
Now that is how I wish the world would see JESUS!!!
By the way U probably did see me there
Doug,
I would love to see a world where we simply believe in each other. A world where we aren’t right and we aren’t wrong we just are. A world where when one is sick we all do what we can to help. A world where it is ok to be loved and gender has nothing to do with it. A world where a different culture is celebrated by other races. A world where we try to learn as much as we can about each other and we do it in a way where honesty and love is all we use to teach with. I would love to see this world. I believe that those who have gone before us are already there. I believe this is paradise. I believe that those of us who want this kind of world are on our way. We will be born again into a world of paradise.
Mindy, it is becoming so clear to me that every vial thing that exist in this world, and has ever existed since Jesus died on that cross, every reason for war, every reason that causes poverty, every reason for hunger , oppression, disease, is the result of mankind not realizing that all there sins were forgiven 2000 years ago. A WORLD THAT IS DIVIDED BY A BELIEF THAT ONE PERSON IS BETTER THAN ANOTHER, more righteous , more deserving more loved by God. When all realize that Jesus drank that vial cup of wrath, that bore the full brunt of our sins, he took it all for us. That will be the moment that this world will use the beauty of there endless power to be perfect, and it will be as beautiful as the world Adam and eve first knew. It will happen because GOD SO LOVES THIS WORLD.
I have lived as you the last 6 mo., as all my circle of angels, as my brother and yours, as my mother, and my sweet sis your mother in a dismal dark place that my tears as yours was my food, but there is something in me that is telling me its time to rejoice. A message that is coming from my sweet bro Lishy.
As the deer pants for streams of water,
so my soul pants for you, O God.
2 My soul thirsts for God, for the living God.
When can I go and meet with God?
3 My tears have been my food
day and night,
while men say to me all day long,
“Where is your God?”
I found him… in my heart
I love my family… thank you lishy
love always
I know that there are people that think, in my own family that, ‘Well Doug has gone over the edge’, but there were people excommunicated by the catholic church because they believed the world was round, there were woman and men hung in Salem Mass. because they wouldn’t admit to being witches, there are raped woman stoned to death in iraq for adultery, there are innocent woman and children killed starving and dieing in the name of God. A result of 2000 years of evangelical christianity confusion.
The world is changing, I believe that somewhere in Somalia darfur iraq Iran china etc, is a little geekish Mac’s with his little laptop, and one by one THE TRUTH WILL SPREAD.
love always
MC, has one dumb ass thing he want to say, he says its really good.. yah sure!
he says all cat have the same religious belief, and there bible only has one pray.. here goes.
calico 1:1 It is better to sleep at the foot of man, then to be the honored guest at dinner with a coyote.
That’s it I’m done with this cat, I’m buying a chicken tomorrow!
love always, cluck cluck
My last thought tonight will be on the mystical magical methods of Gods love.
My brother and i were as close as puppies. We walk this life separately, but i was the big brother, the one he came to when his moral, spiritual, human, compass was confused. I was a brother that he trusted to tell him the truth, right or wrong, he knew he would hear what i thought.
A relationship that withstood a lifetime of human issues, but in his last year of life he came to me with a desperate need to be comforted with his pain, a pain that i saw as misplaced, unjustified, not focused. I sent him away telling him that his pain was selfish, and he needed to look beyond it.
I hurt him… but even knowing that my last words to him were “I have nothing i need to say to you lishy” words that have resonated in my head a thousand times, but my heart knows that there were no words i ever spoke to him that i didn’t feel to be the truth.
What I do know is that if we would have resolved that one simple moment of hurt that i gave him, then i would be doing what i have always done, and waiting to give that little forgive me God prayer 30 seconds before i die.
I’m not saying there is something mystical and magical in the way God works, but i am saying it wasn’t the love of a brother that took me here, it was a brothers love.
Love always
Beauty
I am as lovely as a dream in stone;
My breast on which each finds his death in turn
Inspires the poet with a love as lone
As everlasting clay, and as taciturn.
Swan-white of heart, a sphinx no mortal knows,
My throne is in the heaven’s azure deep;
I hate all movement that disturbs my pose;
I smile not ever, neither do I weep.
Before my monumental attitudes,
Taken from the proudest plastic arts,
My poets pray in austere studious moods,
For I, to fold enchantment round their hearts,
Have pools of light where beauty flames and dies,
The placid mirrors of my luminous eyes.
Charlies Baudelaire
I have been reading a lot of quotes in my spare time. (which I don’t have much of) but I really liked this one and wanted to share.
Perhaps the whole root of our trouble, the human trouble, is that we will sacrifice all the beauty of our lives, will imprison ourselves in totems, taboos, crosses, blood sacrifices, steeples, mosques, races, armies, flags, nations, in order to deny the fact of death, which is the only fact we have.
James Baldwin (1924-1987) African-American writer.
it is the last touch of your last thought
the memory of the cry you live
longing for the hand slipping away
its the moment of brilliant light
shininning throw frightening shadows
held by the beauty of life
its the love of unexpected truth
washed in tears protected in trust
by a brothers love
Lishy
love always
You are so preciouse, SARAH LOUISE…
Love you baby girl
Dad
Hey Doug, I haven’t commented here in a long time due to school. I have to say you really have some insight. I’ll def be looking forward to reading more of your comments.
Mindy, let that be true. Amen sister!
There is a big part of me kiara that knows that my comments should fade away, but there is a whisper in my heart that tells me there is a shivering soul that needs to hear my uncouth truth, that they are loved, that there is nothing to fear, no reason to feel quilt, that they are deserving of all of Gods love, and they need to do nothing.
A big part of me wants to return to the place of comfort that i lived in of complete denial of any God that would know me in this life time, but i don’t think that can happen, and i wouldn’t want it to, if there is just even one person that hears the truth, and sleeps with the knowledge that they are perfect in the heart of God.
I mean come on… what else do i have to do with the rest of my life….
Love always
I need to sleep, cause i have a hard ass boss, but i have one more thought that i need to share.
The beauty of this world coming wont happen in my life time, and probably not in yours, but it will happen sooner if you share the truth.
Love the truth..Doug
Yep, I can see the similarity to Led Zeppelin.
Hey Doug. I do think you have gone over the edge…. over the edge and fallen into a deep blue sea of beauty and tranquility that will forever keep you free. I love to listen to your words.
Sarah Louise-that is an awesome quote.
Love you guys.
I think its more of a mix of Chuck Berry and B B King Steve.
love always
Doug,
I am with Ang on that one!! Fall baby…fall!!
My thought tonight is about marriage. Its not a subject I’m going to have any great insight into. I mean after forty years I’m still trying to figure out how i can go in a blink of an eye of getting a cute little puppy dog look from her to a look that makes me wonder if ill live through the night.
I ran across a little something to day that gave me reason for pause. If I was to ask you which marriage do you think would have the best chance of surviving a lifetime. A marriage that lives within the sanction of religion, or one that is in complete denial of God. Which would you pick? If you picked a blessed marriage sanctioned by religion you would have picked wrong. You see christians divorce at a rate of one out of three, atheist divorce at a rate of 2 out of ten, so if staying married is your objective it seems reasonable that you would be better off marring an atheist.
I’m not suggesting that you do that, but what i am suggesting is that a marriage should be free and on going love of chioses. Your spiritual beliefs should be individual and not imposed on your mate. If a marriage is comprised of rules and laws then sooner or later one or the other in the marriage will suffocate.
I tried to see what the bible said about marriage, but i was left with a feeling that it wasn’t something that Jesus seen as very valuable.
I think it is important to ask yourself what do you really want from marriage. I can tell you my goal is to simply have a buddy a partner a friend that will on occasion give me that puppy dog look…If she wants to put her hair in a bun, wear a long dress, and pray for forgiveness to her God in church all day Sunday that’s OK by me, as long as on Sunday i can drink some beer eat some potato chips, and thank God that Payton Manning didn’t drop the football.
Matthew 22:30
30At the resurrection people will neither marry nor be given in marriage; they will be like the angels in heaven
Love always
Starry, starry night.
Paint your palette blue and grey,
Look out on a summer’s day,
With eyes that know the darkness in my soul.
Shadows on the hills,
Sketch the trees and the daffodils,
Catch the breeze and the winter chills,
In colors on the snowy linen land.
Now I understand what you tried to say to me,
How you suffered for your sanity,
How you tried to set them free.
They would not listen, they did not know how.
Perhaps they’ll listen now.
Starry, starry night.
Flaming flowers that brightly blaze,
Swirling clouds in violet haze,
Reflect in Vincent’s eyes of china blue.
Colors changing hue, morning field of amber grain,
Weathered faces lined in pain,
Are soothed beneath the artist’s loving hand.
Now I understand what you tried to say to me,
How you suffered for your sanity,
How you tried to set them free.
They would not listen, they did not know how.
Perhaps they’ll listen now.
For they could not love you,
But still your love was true.
And when no hope was left in sight
On that starry, starry night,
You stood your life, as lovers often do.
But I could have told you,
This world was never meant for one
As beautiful as you.
Starry, starry night.
Portraits hung in empty halls,
Frameless head on nameless walls,
With eyes that watch the world and can’t forget.
Like the strangers that you’ve met,
The ragged men in the ragged clothes,
The silver thorn of bloody rose,
Lie crushed and broken on the virgin snow.
Now I think I know what you tried to say to me,
How you suffered for your sanity,
How you tried to set them free.
They would not listen, they’re not listening still.
Perhaps they never will…
love always
MC is at the screen door, he has been trying to unionize with my new pet chicken ..Clucky..he says Clucky is crazy, but that they have demands and clucky wants the final word… God a hate animals.
Clucky says: “God is a chicken, and his egg is earth, within is all the love.”
Geezze I’m having fried chicken for supper tomorrow night!
POWER TO THE COYOTES
love always
There is no way im going to let a peck-in white rock, and a purr-in alley cat have the last word. You know that!
“The nucleus of Gods love began with the first heartbeat of the first child in a universe of perfection, an everlasting love that will end with the last heartbeat of the last child knowing it.”
love always Doug
My last thought will be of my first thought tonight, a thought of MARRIAGE.
Marriage between people of this earth is a relationship that offers no guarantees. The beautiful moment of your love today may be your last moment. The expectation of tomorrow may end. Human love is not immortal it is of the moment.
Don’t confuse spiritual love for your God, with human love for your partner, your friend, your buddy. Both of you can walk hand in hand into your sunset, but both of you must walk alone with your God.
love my babygirls
Censured to the garage to smoke my vile cigarettes, I took a moment to watch a fellow traveler cross my garage floor. With a slow but determine effort a little willy worm made his way across the cold floor towards the light of charlie dogs box. He would stop periodically and raise half of his body to look around, a curious look i assume pondering his safety.
He finally made it to the warmth of charlie dogs homage, a place that his cocoon will give forth a beautiful forthcoming of life. A chrysalis of life renewed.
As you crawl across your cold garage floor, look for the light. From there you will bloom into your butterfly.
Love always
I’m trying Audrey, were are you, my little spiritual Sufi, have i lost my guiding light?
love my angel
I don’t have a garage Doug (workin’ on a car port though)….and I don’t smoke (since “99″) but I still get censured….quite often I might add. Know what I mean? Chuck Berry & BB King huhhh? How about Jerry Lee & uhh………ZZ top???
I didn’t know when i would share the most delicate part of my life. I didn’t know if i ever would. I didn’t know if i should.
Our lives can be framed in a moment, a structure that is as solid as marble. A wall unclimbable. A sorrow unspeakable.
I spoke the other night of the love of a mother. A beauty that man can never feel. A moment of beauty that lasts with every heartbeat till and beyond the moment of birth. A precious time of knowing that you are creating. A unity of mothers and God.
I can tell you that man can never know that beauty as a woman dose, but he can know the lost of it with a pain unequaled.
I have spent a lifetime wounded and wondering why i couldn’t have been more of a man. Why i didn’t do what my young heart wasn’t brave enough to do. Why i didn’t protect the preciousness of new life.
It comes so quick,
you wait for the sun.
Help me to know,
when the right times comes.
Mom, Dad, brothers are right!
Help me to know,
if the time is tonight.
Children are the glue,
they hold you so tight.
The sun comes up,
again i need the night.
Half a life gone,
again a question of love.
Is my life’s search for the sun,
or for what is not done?
A moment in life,
birth-death, at one time!
Im sorry its over!
I missed my first son.
I’m 60 years old now, I wrote this in my mid thirty’s. I don’t know if tonight is my moment of forgiveness,or just another moment of remembrance, but i know the beauty of life lost will last you a life time.
I miss my first sun
love
My heart tonite is throbbing to say the right words. Begging to share the truth of LOVE. Hoping that i cant give the clarity of its true meaning.
Youthful love is started by infatuation of the dreams of your life. A moment in time that offers a uncontrollable desire to feel forever. It is an emotion, so pure, so beautiful, an emotion that you feel should last a lifetime, but love is not an emotion, it is an action.
YOU FALL IN LOVE, falling is not an emotion, falling in love is the action of deciding to give yourself to someone else.
On first date with my wife i took her to a drive-in theater, she was 15 I was 17, after the movie i drove to a winding country road. I took a 67 pontiac catalina up to a speed over 100, I shut the lights on the car off, I took my hands off the steering wheel, then i looked at her and said, “When you kiss me ill turn the lights back on”.
I don’t know what she saw in me, but i know she was infatuated, an infatuation that let her fall in love with me, as i with her, I mean come on i knew there wasn’t one in a million that would take my phone call after that date.
WE FELL IN LOVE, but it wasn’t that night, it was after years and years of trials and tribulation over all kinds of crap life deals you, but there was a point in time that we knew that we were ONE.
So many times marriages declare “I HAVE FALLIN OUT OF LOVE”, a declaration that states that you are choosing to withhold all that you have to give, an action of love denied, an action that can set you free or blind you of the beauty of love that is over the next hill.
I know there are some hills to big to climb, but i also know you have to be true to your heart when you take that action.
Love my baby girls
MC, seems to be bonding with clucky, he wants to share his feeling of love.
He says: “The pain of the quill, of the feather you love may not be as beautiful as the down of the heart you don’t see”
I think they are conspiring.
love my bgs
I HATE CAT AND CHICKEN UNIONS…
‘The beauty of true love will only be felt through the scares of life’
‘The wounds will be the strength of your true love’
‘Kissed by your buddy, your friend, your partner’
LOVE MY BGS
My last thought tonight will be about LOVE.
I talked about FALLING IN LOVE, I talked about FALLING OUT OF LOVE, but i didn’t talk about the LOSS OF LOVE.
Human love is special, it will comfort you, it can wrap you in a blanket, and warm you on the cold nights, but it is only from this moment to the next. The loss of that LOVE can be momentary, or it can last you a lifetime.
How high is your hill
love uncle Doug
My last thought tonight will not be one of a passive loving heart. It will be of a man who has walked everywhere you have been, felt all that you have felt, done all that you have done. The whimpering heart that you clutch I have felt, the whining pain that you embrace I have known, the self indulgence i have touched. The want you feel, I have felt.
I walked my boney ass to the top of that fuckin hill..
love you bg
Doug,
Thank you for sharing that. You are inspiring, you are precious, you are perfect and your words touch my heart. You have me in tears, you have me smiling and you have my heart throbbing as well.
I’m trying to walk that hill but the top feels like it keeps getting farther away and I’m tired.
When the discouraged finally open there eyes and there heart to COURAGE it can be like flood gates opening, washing you away to places you didn’t expect to go, so swiftly that your truly courageous heart becomes blurred to the wonderful new life you will know.
Slow down, don’t stop, but look around.
The courageous… Take the next step in spite of fear
The courageous… know that truth is there strength
The courageous… forgive but not unconditionally
The discouraged linger in stagnant hope with an awesome amazement of the courageous.
I am so proud of you, BG#3….TAKE THE NEXT STEP… its not that big of a hill, and you have so many people willing to hold your hand if you need one.
Love Uncle Doug
I got a freaking mess out here, MC,and Clucky are running for union president… MC has been registering mice all day as little kittens, and Clucky is promising the coyotes a cat for every vote. MC, has a sign that says “Yes we can!”, and Clucky has one that says “Power to the peckers”.
I’m moving to town, i cant take country life.
Love always
The human mind is such a amazing thing. It is so complicated unlike any other organ in this human body. I believe the human mind is constantly evolving to a higher level of understand with each year that passes. I believe that a thousand years from now we will be a thousand times closer to knowing God. I not saying that you cant feel God today, but I’m saying there is a difference feeling God and knowing him. Charlie dog feels my love everyday, he will obey me, and crawl out of his warm dog box with his arthritic bones on a freezing night to feel my hand on his ears, but his ability to know me ends there.
Mankind has the ability to go beyond charlie dog.
We no longer have the murderous mentality of the Puritans of the 1600s, we have evolved, or the racial divide of the 1800s, we have evolved, it is slow but it is sure.
The reason i know that mankind, will in time, walk with a clear understanding, a knowing of God is because there is no thought i have that he doesnt know.
I say a lot of crazy crap on here.. do you think i will ever say anything that God will say, “Hollycrapollie i never thought of that”? He wont, because there is nothing that you can think of, or wont think of, that he don’t know, but i believe he loves it when we step one foot closer to knowing him.
Keep on walking people, the next BIG DAMM BAND is with your next thought.
Love always
I’m starting to gag now, MC, is burning chicken feathers in a trash barrel and parading in a circle, shooting “Hail to the pussy”!
Dam stupid cat
Love always
My last thought will be on EXPECTATIONS. As we forage throw this jungle of life we have expectations, beliefs in what we should have, in what we deserve, what is rightfully ours.
The truth is that this world that God prepared for us offers no expectations of our human desires, needs, or wants, but it offers an everlasting expectation of love beyond this jungle. It is in your next heartbeat.
LOVE Doug
To bg#3, the beauty of your new found strength, is a power that was born to a baby girl of the purist of hearts, blossomed into a life of truth, of tomorrow.
Your fingers can know touch with with the beauty of a free and pure love, or they can claw with the power of confusion.
be true to your heart.. and you power will be overwhelming..
Love you bg
were is my angel Audrey…
The pain of human memories can seem to be as everlasting as the search for the immortal love of God. The belief that the truth of the human mind is above the the truth of your heart will leave you lost.
The spirit you were born with will walk you to the top of your mountain.
A love you were born with, and will die with.
love
I have always thought myself to be smarter then others perceived me to be, or maybe i perceived myself to be smarter then i am.
Either way i believed in myself.
It is the self you have to feel, and trust… either way.
love always
Love is the caress of tomorrow
lost in the pain of today
remembered by the truth
Love is the hand of control
wrapped on the throat
of an eagles wings
Love is the touch of tears
warmed in chilling fears
damping the heart of angels
Love is the nectar of truth
the courage of trust
and the song of an angel
BG#3
LOVE U
Doug
That damn Chicken Clucky showed up at my house last night passing out fliers that said,”The Pecker Rules”! You need to limit his ability to cross state lines!!! hahaha
Peace
Geo
I think its to late Geo, this thing is snowballing and going international. Letters are coming in from diplomats all around the world. The United Kingdom of Clukers is demanding an investigation. The Peckers Republic of China is wanting a summit, and the United Soviet society of Red herring is requesting a meeting with Hilary clucker.
Clucky is saying that if all the little mice-kittens dont stop stuffing the ballot boxes he is going to start building a uranium plant powered by chicken crap!
MC is saying hes not attending any meeting with Hilary Clucker unless Slick Willy is there with his cat Boots!
Ive got a phone call into Condalisa Mice asking for an intervention.
Hang on… its getting crazy out here!
love always
Taken me a long time to catch up with all your thoughts Doug, And there are some goodies there! But I certainly cannot keep up with the political situation you have around you! Sounds very like what is going on in the human world!! I’ve been off radar in another city and soon to go to another country (Oz) for a month, (looking after g’kids) but I’ll keep peeking in to see what’s happening, tho I may not be able to comment! But, you don’t need me to confirm when you are ‘on-track’ – you can feel that confirmation within you AS YOU KEEP WALKING. And so what if you take a wrong turn or stumble at a choice, there is no condemnation, just re-focus on the big picture, keep that eye single and speak out those deep feelings that bubble up from within. Here are some of your thoughts that resonated inside me, that I FELT and wanted to encourage you to keep going with.
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“but i know i have been amazed at every turn in my path, and I am somewhere I couldn’t have imagined traveling to, and i feel like I’m not even close to the first rest stop, the one you get to just before you say “are we there yet dad”?”
This is my feeling too Doug, we can see a little, but it’s not like we’ve arrived. But having put our hands to the plough, there’s no going back. It’s all forward, a step at a time – that’s the still small voice that encourages us onward – any that suggests we’ve arrived is the wrong voice.
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“imagine a world that believes that all are redeemed, a world of oneness.
I believe that those of us who want this kind of world are on our way. We will be born again into a world of paradise.”
This is the big picture Doug, this is where we are heading, that beautiful unified creation expressing eternal life – immortality in all its richness, and the spirit MIND behind it all. There are a few barriers to break through on the way, one of them being death so that it may never manifest its ugliness again. Lots of things we hold on to without knowing it, those bits of this human life that cling must be ‘let go’ so that we can run the race without any encumbrances. We are in transition moving from one consciousness (the natural realm) to another consciousness (realm of the spirit). We are heading for the NEW LIFE. As you described here so well – “As you crawl across your cold garage floor, look for the light. From there you will bloom into your butterfly.”
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“one by one THE TRUTH WILL SPREAD.
its the love of unexpected truth
washed in tears protected in trust
by a brothers love”
We are beginning to see the new ‘family,’ not ties of blood and genes. – that, good as it may seem, is but a shadow or a picture of the REAL family, all of us joined together in the same spirit of love, nobody excluded.
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“I tried to see what the bible said about marriage, but i was left with a feeling that it wasn’t something that Jesus seen as very valuable.”
You are right, and statistics bear out the same truth. JC was not advocating marriage because it is a man-made institution and today more than ever, the flaws within it show up. However he did his first miracle at a wedding when he turned the water into wine. This again is a picture of that higher consciousness, an elevation of the natural to the spiritual. Just as you have said, “ Human love is not immortal it is of the moment” We are being born into that REAL love, that holds the universe together – it is far above the types of love seen with our mortal eyes. You have said it here, “Don’t confuse spiritual love for your God, with human love for your partner, your friend, your buddy. Both of you can walk hand in hand into your sunset, but both of you must walk alone with your God.” Then you went on to say when you were talking of the love between you and your wife, “but there was a point in time that we knew that we were ONE.” That ONENESS is the spirit, that is the JOY that is the WINE. It thrills me to think you have that oneness with your wife because together you can learn so much, using that trust where you can safely speak out those deeper feelings that bring you into TRUTH.
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“A moment in life,
birth-death, at one time!
Im sorry its over!
I missed my first son”
I gather you wrote this about a still-born son? My heart went out to you as I read this. I too have experienced such a tragedy, not my own son, but my eldest son’s first child – our first g’child. .She is never far from my thoughts and I know one day we will be able to speak the word and she will be here with us again. At present she is waiting in the wings, like Cliff and like your little son. Nobody is gone forever – there is a time for them to return – they wait for us to come into the power and authority of the truth, so let’s keep walking! This is a shitty world – they are best out of it at present. We can’t ‘clean it up’ no matter how hard we try. Trying won’t do it. We just have to keep unravelling the truth from within, following that light and every step we take becomes our ‘land’ . No going back, we are going HOME and we’ll take them with us!
It is a beautiful, quiet feeling I get inside when I read your words Audrey. Thank you-
I am sitting here at 11:00pm waiting to pick up my youngest son. I have been in alot of physical pain lately and taking pain pills to get through the days. I picked up a journal and started writing to my dad, realizing I can’t take a pill to relieve the pain of his death. I can’t take a pill to take away the pain I have caused myself and those I love. I sit here in self pitty. Well BooHoo to me! In the darkest of moments all the answers are in front of us. Whether we choose to acknowledge the answer is the most difficult. Physical pain causes mental pain. Mental pain causes physical pain. So what do you do? How do you stop the pain. How do you heal the wounds? Dad use to tell all of us, It’s all in is your head! Well he was right! Not that we don’t experience pain, it’s how you deal with the pain. My dads mental strength was far beyond anyone I have ever or will ever meet. He was in physical pain and I know the pain of leaving his loved ones was even more profound. What did my dad do? He used the only medicine needed to heal all. He used love,faith and God. These were his pain pills. Would I have rather had my father here and never had to go through this? Absolutley! Why am I writing this? Well, maybe this is my pain pill tonight. Realizing that pain, no matter what kind, is all in your head. Tonight, love, faith, God and DAD will ease my pain.
Tammy, grief affects us all in a variety of ways, with some it’s an immediate out-pouring, dealing with the loss in a range of emotions. With others who seem to ride through the initial stages with strength, the grief hits a raw nerve much later on. As you know, taking pills is not the answer. That merely delays the grief process. You said you have a journal and began to write to your Dad. Well, that’s a good beginning. Writing on BG is another good thing. What you have bottled up within you must be let out, bit by bit, piece by piece until you can say goodbye to your Dad and begin to live from the strength you have within you. That is what he would desire for you. You mention a lot about your head Tammy, but what about your heart? When did you last listen to what your heart is saying to you? Stop still and listen awhile, there you can tap into all the strength you need to combat this very dark valley you find yourself in. There within yourself is the light you need to guide you – it is the same light that your father found. Go find it Tammy and tell us about it. I trust your youngest son came to you and helped relieve your sadness,
sent with love from NZ
Hey Aud, so nice to hear from you, and I agree with Ang. Your words always leave me with a feeling of peace and clarity, words that seem to soften the bends and curve of my path in this journey. Words that help me to walk a straighted trail with focus on the light.
Enjoy your time with them G-kids and try not to spoil them…awh what heck spoil-em all you can.
Love you Doug
Tam, your physical pain is within that clay shell and will need to be repaired by whatever resources mankind can treat it with, but your mental pain is within your heart, and that is where you will need to go for treatment, you will find a wonderful physician there and sitting right beside him will be your Dad with a warm and comforting smile.
LOVE YOU..BG#2
Uncle Doug
Tolerance- toleration is on my mind tonight. I heard a catholic priest on a TV show the other night when ask if any of his congregation might consider killing an abortion clinic doctor in the name of God he respond by saying that they teach and believe in tolerance, and i thought what dose that really mean?
The definition is, sympathy or indulgence for beliefs or practices differing from or conflicting with one’s own. The act of allowing something : toleration, but what i really think it means is that chistians of organized religion will no longer kill you if you believe differently than them.
Wow, we’ve come along way baby.. ya see my non christian uneducated belief in what the word tolerance meant was , to respect, without criticism and ridicule, and to engage differences and disagreements without prejudice.
Now that i understand this “we wont kill you any more” mentality of the chistian instatuions from the 17th century to now, i can begain to understand how that would play into all aspects of our lives today. I can emagine how that mentality could control someone, or buriy them in the muck leaving them to suficate.
I am in charge. I will allow you some though not all of the rights and privileges that I enjoy, provided that you behave yourself according to rules that I will lay down and enforce.
Benard Lewis
Tolerance i still believe to be a good part of your charactor when you understand its true meaning, and feel it with the unconditional purity of a God of love.
Love always
Tonight as a sweet angel fly solo with wings of a thousand eagles, and a heart guided bye the light of a thousand stars, my heart cries, touched by the wondrous courage.
As tender hearts of hope look to the sky with eyes blurred by tears of love awaiting the beautiful return of an eagle of courage, only to be amazed by the beautiful flutter of a butterfly’s wings.
Fly BG#3
LOVE YOU
How many of you think your going to hell, or at least not be held in the arms of God if you don’t believe in him?
Well,,, I’m here to tell you a truth that i believe.
When JESUS stepped up and died on that cross he did it so all of our sins were forgiven
Is it a sin to not believe in God, oh hell yeah…so i guess even the non believer is cool.
LEARN to love, and you’ll know, Gods love with your next heartbeat, stepping over your last heartbeat to the lighted path of resurrection.
love always
MC freaked out today when he saw Clucky wearing a vest of ears of popcorn, threatening to light himself on fire in a popcorn bombing.
The pure heart of MC wouldn’t allow this conflict to continue.
As i watched he held the wing of Clucky, and softly told him of a world of love. A world of peace, a world of trust, a world that all are equal, and i saw Clucky tremble in its beauty….
All is well in my world tonight
love always
1 Corinthians 13:8
8 Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away
LOVE ALWAYS
As the prophecies go, as tongues lie silent, as knowledge sleeps, LOVE WILL NEVER FAIL, because truth is in your heart.
LOVE YOU SIS
Its so easy to dance my dance, just close your eyes, and feel the song of a thousand angels, open your door, and feel the warmth of a thousand horns, spread your arms and feel the rhythm of a thousand drums, open your heart and touch words of a song of a thousand angels.
love always
As an eagle of courage flies in a silent starry sky, I sit atop my tree of trust. As the purity of perfection explodes in to the universe, I sit atop my tree of truth. As the beauty of tomorrow’s light brightens, i sit atop my tree of love. As the morning dawns i welcome a butterfly, and i sit atop my tree of belief.
love you BG#3
MC IS TRYING TO TELL ME ALL IS GOOD, AND I CAN SLEEP NOW, but hes just a damm cat. What could he know?
He says the warmth, joy, peace that i feel when he sits on my lap is like a grain of sand in the ocean to knowing Gods love…
hes a pretty smart cat…i think
love always
“If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames but have not love, I gain nothing.” ~ I Corinthians 13: 2-3
What love is Paul speaking of, the love of your children, the love of your spouse, the love of this beautiful earth, mountains, stars, sun, the love of of your life?
Most of my journey so far has been a path that has lead me to a heart that has felt so many hearts of pain, beautiful souls that are searching for a simple truth. I have witnessed people craving Gods love, abandon him in confusion, willing to accept complete denil of him then to continue in there pain of guilt. I have seen the perfect turn there back to the light, because the felt unworthy, and i have seen the worthy bow to the word of the unworthy in blind faith.
The love Paul is speaking of is not in a church, you wont find it in your bible, no priest or preacher can teach it to you, but you can feel it, not in the stars or the moon not in your mind, but in your heart.
Paul speaks of a love so much greater then any love you can imagine, the human mind cant feel love greater then the love for a child or a spouse, until it knows the love of jesus, then it knows truth, an undeniable truth of the heart.
love always
Its so easy for the common mind to say i know the love of jesus, i read it in the bible, i heard it from my preacher, i got on my knees and prayed to it every night.
Well, let me tell yah, you don’t have to pray to god, that would be like saying your send a letter to him, you don’t need to get on your knees to feel him, that’s like saying your knee bone are closer to him then your heart, you don’t need to recite scripture to him, that like hes to stupid to know what his on words are.
All yah gotta do is no that everything in your mind about God is bullshit, and anything in your heart about God is the ass kickin truth you seek.
love always
Humanity seems to believe that man consists of two lives. The human life, but also a life that has a soul. In every religion we distinguish the difference, expecting the human life to be one with the soul, and trusting the human life to take the soul of our life to a better place, or expecting the soul to protect the human life, but i think we got it all screwed up at the cross.
YAH SEE, there is only one of the two life within you that is everlasting, it is the soul. yah say well i guess I will no that when i die, but the soul within you wont die, so know it know and you wont die, the only death you can feel is the one of a life that doesn’t feel God. crazy huh?
love always
I had BGS leave tears of love on my shoulder today, sweet hearts of pure love, wanting understanding, waiting for relief of there pain. PURE HEARTS touched by a love they don’t understand, love left to them with a beauty they can see.
My shoulder offered nothing but a connection to a heart of understanding of love left to them by the one they cry for. The one that is waiting for them to smile in the light of the love he new.
smile Amy, smile BGS
love uncle Doug
God wants my bgs to know…
Psalm 59:16
16 But I will sing of your strength,
in the morning I will sing of your love;
for you are my fortress,
my refuge in times of trouble
its is your pure love he feels
love always
My last thought will be on the pain and the truth….my tears are as wet as yours, i tremble with the same loneliness as you, i whimper in the same darkness as you, i beg for the same light as you, i cry for the touch of his hand the same as you…..the pain of love of a human heart…a heart that that touched you and me with a beauty that almost leaves u paralyzed in pain, but a love that leaves a truth of the beauty he saw.
Feel his love, and wake with a warm smile..
love always
I don’t think i can do this much more, I have danced because of my brothers death, i have danced for him, and for myself, but its time for me to dance alone…as i told you each of us needs to hold Gods hand alone.
love always
Thanks for sharing Doug. I’m really enjoying your insight.
Hey guys remember me?!!!