“I have realized that there is more my soul has to share”
"It is always raining in my head." I just heard that in a song called Epiphony by Staind. And it is always raining in my head!!!! Those words are so true!!! Just when you think you are starting to treck further into the cave you hear or see something that brings you back out and it made me filter something that Doug commented about when he wrote, "I keep thinking that there will be a point that I have shared all that my heart has to give". This made me realize that when this point in my journey starts to become easier to travel I will always find more to share from my heart. This is a journey that will go on forever because it will go on in the hearts of those that I have left behind just as my Father has done through us. Though he cannot physically write from his heart he left a piece of it in all of us and we will continue to write for him. Our journies may take us down different roads. Those roads will be hard and they may be easy it just depends on where we let life take us, but through these journies we will always have something to share.
I can remember a time as a younger woman going to Church every Sunday and listening to my Father speak to the congregation. Even though the setting was annoying his words always shot straight to my heart because he was real and he shared his truth. I have always been drawn to those that are real even when I wasn’t being real with myself. IT doesn’t get better than when people share their truths with you. We have to be willing to hear the feelings and trust how it touches us. Some people can talk a mile a minute about what they believe is the truth, but the reality is that the truth is within each and every one of us. Filter what you are hearing and listen to YOUR voice from within? Can you even begin to touch the feelings that arise from within you? Some believe that feelings can’t be touched, but for me they can. When I held my Father’s hand while he took his last breath I touched them.
You may not live to see tomorrow, but are you living today? YOU are the truth. I realize life is a struggle. Finding happiness for yourself in a world of illusions is so diffucult. I am going through it now, but don’t give up on yourself. Don’t settle for what others think is your happiness. Search, listen, study others and allow yourself the emotions that your soul is desperately trying to get out of you. You can’t stop the pain, you can’t control the happiness you feel. You are a soul made up of feelings that make you who you are. We all have that in common. It is a universal language that we try to deny by color, race, sexual orientation or whatever, but the reality is that we are all connected. It isn’t a connection from the surface, but from a place deep within that most are afraid of. Some of us are just connected more to each other and that is when we fall in love or find friendships that last forever. Keep the ones close to you that try to understand who you are and love and accept you for that.
Don’t ever think that you don’t have anything to share. It may be hard to get the words out, but when you find those that want to hear you and you share more of who you are you’ll become more free to be the perfect child that God made you to be.
