What I Believe! By Cliff Hazelbaker
I have seen so many people searching for truth go from one extreme to another in hopes of somehow finding peace. We often label ourselves as Christians, Atheists, Muslins, Buddhists, or whatever happens to be what you think you are for the moment. I have come to detest labels of any kind because once you accept a label you feel like you have to defend it. What I want to do today is state a few of the things I really believe in and also some things I don’t believe in.
WHAT I BELIEVE IN:
- I believe in accepting responsibility for my own actions and correcting them whenever possible.
- I believe in being a true friend with understanding and loyalty.
- I believe in being a compassionate and kind person.
- I believe in striving to see the best in myself and others.
- I believe in allowing others freedom to follow their own path.
- I believe in seeing the human race as one race in need of love for each other.
- I believe in grace that has meaning and power behind it.
- I believe in being the most loving person that I can be.
WHAT I DON’T BELIEVE IN:
- I don’t believe in using grace as a cover for hurtful human behavior.
- I don’t believe in justifying or excusing my own behavior just because I believe I am forgiven.
- I don’t believe Bold Grace was ever intended to substitute giving our best effort to be people of love.
- I don’t believe just because I happen to trust in God’s unconditional love that it means I have to be silent when I see injustice of any kind.
- I don’t believe God will punish anyone for their poor choices, but I do believe there are absolute consequences to every decision we make here on earth.
- I don’t believe in religion of any kind, but I do believe there is a loving creator that is beyond our imagination to fathom and that he does reveal himself to us.
- I don’t believe in holding on to those things in life I feel I have failed at, but I do think every failure can be an invaluable lesson for my future.
- I don’t believe God will leave any of us in our ignorance of how loving he really is.
In summing up let me say that all of the above are my personal convictions of life. There are many more but these sum up the best of what I believe. I should also say that even though I treasure the right for people to be free in making their own choices I also reserve the right to speak up against those choices when they HURT other people.
Peace to ALL
Thanks so much for posting this again. This just hit the spot! Brings me such comfort! It’s one of my very favorite reads that Cliff wrote, heck, that anyone has written. It’s just so beautiful and isn’t it true that someone with this particular belief system is who we want to be around, who we feel comfortable with, and loved and protected. Its more rare than I would wish but I do believe in the next life, it is what we will find. I’m soooooooooo ready for that next life! Ready to see Cliff again and my dad, his dad, uncle Joe and Aunt Abbie, just can’t wait till we’re all together again in that next life!
I believe that Cliff walked alone many times in his mind. Times that he spent with himself to understand the truth of what he believed in, and of what he didn’t believe in. THESE TIMES THAT WE WALK ALONE IN OUR MINDS ARE TIMES OF CORRECTION IN OUR LIVES, but what i didn’t understand as i know now that Cliff did, is that as we walk alone in our minds we never walk alone in our hearts, because the love of all those that love us will walk with us, and the undying love of God will never fail us.
LOVE NEVER FAILS! LOVE NEVER FAILS! LOVE NEVER FAILS! LOVE NEVER FAILS!
My Mom asked me to post this again and although I have read it a thousand times it had lost it’s meaning since Dad died…until today. Mom, you helped the light bulb go off
And though the road may still get bumpy or the lights go off again I can honestly say that today is good and the road seems opened.
My spiritual mentor had left me and that is all that I have been able to focus on. I am at a stage where I am mad and with that anger comes a sense of feeling lost, abandoned, confused and resentment towards life and those that are still living. I seemed to have forgotten what my Father and I shared together spiritually. It was something we both were soo passionate about. We loved calling each other and talking about it or going home to visit and listening to him talk about a new book he read or an experience he or I had gone through and what he had learned from it.
I believe that this is a perfect process…these feelings I am having are a part of my process. My Father was a philosopher and an Angel who had figured this life out and I got to share it with him along his way and although the pain makes me angry it is what I am suppose to feel. I can still be angry and be the most loving person I can possibly be. I can be real and that is what I believe!
On Thanksgiving day I am going to crank the music up real loud and go around the house singing and dancing in my underwear. I am going to wake my baby up singing, “good morning to you, good morning to you, with bright shinging faces all over the places, good morning to youuuuuu, GOOOD M O R N I N G TOOOOO YOUUUUUUUUU!!!!!!!!” My Baby will look at me like I am crazy just as I did Dad when he would do it to us kids and I am going to tickle her until she smiles and says I am the Queen and I am going to get us all excited about the incredible day we are going to share together!! REGARDLESS of those things that can weigh heavy on our minds!! REGARDLESS OF THOSE THINGS!! I know my Dad wants it that way.
Thanks Momma for reminding me.
My sweet precious mom went home today. I’m sure Cliff has sounded the trumpet and driving the welcome wagon! Doug, I called aunt Barb this morning and will let you all know the arrangements as soon as we do if you would like. It will be at GreenView Memorial in Florence Al probably Sun or Mon. If you would like to call me my # is (256)394-0728. She is in a better place. She loved you all so very dearly!
The arrangements for my mom, Norma Hazelbaker are visitation 6-8pm on Sunday and funeral on Monday at 11:00 am at Greenview Memorial in Florence, Al. JUst wanted to update the information. Love you all!
cuz Lisa
Aunt Norma was such a sweet soul. A beautiful tribute to the truth of this life. A loving and kind person that walked this life seeing through the eyes of JESUS. There are no words to share with you and your family LISA that will shelter you from the pain of the lost you feel, but with a sad heart i send to you and all of your family, my deepest love.
Love you Doug
“I am leaving you with a gift — peace of mind and heart. And the peace I give is a gift the world cannot give. So don’t be troubled or afraid.” John 14:27
The angels are talking to you tonight cousins and they are holding your hearts, as i am.
love Doug
The pain of our loss in this life is a continuous truth. It begins with our innocence and ends with the truth of that first loss. Some beautiful soul never walk far from the beauty of there innocence, other take a different path and walk in the darkness till they cant see the light, till they cant feel the light, but the light is always there, and at any moment like the turning on a switch they will see it, feel it, and be warmed by there first loss.
The perfect beauty of our soul is a truth we were born with, a perfect love that can be felt in the mind of man from his first breath, and it is only in our mind that we can lose its truth, because it will never leave our hearts.
My Aunt Norma never stepped far from the innocence of her first breath. I wish i could say that to, but i walk into valleys of darkness, my travels took me so far from the beauty of my innocence, that i thought it would be better if i could not believe in any God.
I KEPT WALKING, and the minute i let GOD INTO my mind, he held my heart with the innocence of my first breath. Aunt Norma showed the beauty of her heart with every touch, every word and every heartbeat of her life. All i had to do was feel it, and i do now.
Dance me to the end of love…so that i can fly with angels.
The four of you are going to fly together now, and as with the geese flying north in a V each of you will take the lead giving strength to the others, Jackie will lead for a while till he tiers then Linda will step up, and when Linda weakens Lisa’s wings will care you, and then Connie will lead, and you will feel the love of your life with every moment.
you could missed the pain cousins… but you woulda had to miss the dance.
I’m flying with Aunt Norma tonight, and i think Cliff has ice cream for her.
Jack.. Linda.. Lisa.. Connie fly with me.
love you Guys Doug
I’m going to talk about a little different subject now.
WOMAN.. gezz your so confusing. I mean come on, men can forget to carry the trash out for a month with nothing said, then all of the sudden we leave a pair of socks on the floor and you ll stand looking at them with hate in your eyes that would make a coyote cry. We can boob flip you a hundred times, then one little pat on the ass will get you a look that makes you wonder if you ll wake with balls.
I dont think ill ever understand woman. I’m pretty sure that when Adam ate that apple in the garden he felt guilty as shit and slapped a fig leaf over his privets( and he would say it was a big leaf), but I’m just as sure that Eve after she took a bite, made Adam sit on a log for two hours while she tried on a fig leaf, a maple leaf, three oak leaves, then whined because the sycamore leaves made her look fat, and I’m pretty sure that bite of apple was all Adam got that night.
Is it just me that thinks this wAY?
lOVE ALWAYS
MC SAYS: You can crank the tail on a mouse till it squeals and shrills like Jimmy Hendrix at Woodstock, or you can eat bee’s till your tongue is the size of Mick Jagger’s, or you you can eat the food of the one that loves you.
I swear that cats done drugs..
DAM CAT
The deep purplish red of the crimson blood of life, that travels with us in the ebb and tide of our hearts, is the truth of our first breath, the perfect star of the night, and it will give way to the southern beauty of four sunrises.
love you cousins
He still speaks to us! This was a perfect post for me to read today. I am printing it out to post on my frig. My teenage son needs this the most right now. Thank you for posting it again! They were the right words at the right time. Blessing to you all!
I want to speak to Mindy just a little bit now. You speak of your father being a philosopher and an angel, and he was. He was a magical person that went beyond the common mind to seek the truth of the life he was living.
He sought the existence of this life..as you do. He looked for its knowledge, and values…as you do, and he wanted to feel its reason, and its true mind..as you do. You are what he was, a philosopher, and an angel, and hes so proud of you.
Stay on course bg, love the journey, you got a long road ahead of you, line it with roses.
love Uncle Doug
With every heartbeat Michelle.
Doug
My last thought for the night will be to send a better mental image of my thanksgiving morning then MINDY DID. So hang on. IM GONNA GET UP THANKSGIVING MORNING… STRIP NAKED.. DRESS MC LIKE A TURKEY, AND WAKE CINDY WITH AN EARTH, WIND, AND FIRE SONG “GET READY CAUSE IM COMEIN”.
LOVE THE MOMENTS OF YOUR LIFE
Thanks Doug for the laughter and the tears. You are so very precious to me!
I wanna say a few words to anther angel of mine, a perfect heart that is afraid to feel all the love around her. You all know how I am i will either sit silently or i will say the truth as i see it, and I’m going to talk to my Bg3 as i see it. IM GONNA USE UR WORDS BG3.
“I wouldn’t be making this journey with the confidence and excitement that I have if it weren’t for my sister”.
Your sister would tell you that’s bullshit, the journey your on is your own. The hands you hold, and the hearts you trust, will be the ones that never fail you. They will be the love you’ve always known to be true, the confidence, and the excitement of your new journey is the truth in your own heart, and the trust of it. Your sis will always be there for you, but this dance is yours girl, and I’m so proud of you.
I dont know if you can top Mindy or me on Thanksgiving morning, but im thinkin if ud stick a a feather up ur naked ass and dance around saying ” I a am woman here me roar” might be a start.
love ya girl
unCLE dOUG
MC says: its better to suck the beak off a turkey, then to taste the cranberries on a coyote’s ass.
I’m gonna try and find therapy for him..
Dam cat
The love you walk with is not a new love, the love you dont walk with is not lost, the love you want is waiting, the love you cant feel..feels you, and the love you dont recognize……is you.
Love always
im gonna say just a few to my bony leg angel.
why do you let me dance with a feather up my ass?
my last thought will be of the precious moments of ThANKSGIVING DAY. its a day that whether you come early or late its perfect.
I like to be there earlie myself because i get the opportunity to watch all the perfect souls walk in, and shed there cloaks and leave them on the back bedroom, they walk into the room with a shine of the light they have always felt.
HUGS AND KISSES seem to never stop, we almost wanta puke at the end od the day from the chocolate chip cookies of Cindy or the noodles made my the tender fingers of my mother, we will kreange at the craziness of my brother Andy, and we will hold each other with a love only God can feel.
MC say: its better to kiss the belly of a mouse a thousand times then to feel the belly of a coyote once.
THERE IS TEATMENT.
Dam cat
The confidence and the excitement of a journey to peace and happiness begins with a fearless mind and will either be left wanting and lonely in that mind, or it will travel to the heart of truth.
love
MY LAST THOUGHT TONIGHT WILL BE FOR THE PERFECT ANGELS IN OUR HEAVENS.
GOODNITE AUNT NORMA
I will be thinking of you all on Thanksgiving and this Holiday Season. Hope I’ll be singing very loudly and off key and as I do, I’ll see your faces and feel your love.
Lisa,
Norma is asking Dad for a bite of his icecream and as he smiles at her with his smircky grin he is telling her, as did with us kids, that it is medicine and she can’t have any, but I know without a shadow of a doubt that he gave her a bite as he always did and they are laughing together over a bowl of cookies and cream and sharing their stories with each other. I love that thought Lisa.
My thoughts are with you and my arms are wrapped around you. She is in a better place for sure
Today my wife and I spent some time at the old farm house of her mothers. We began to sort all the collected stuff from the years, and make trips to the dumpsters with what was trash, and to goodwill with what we thought someone might want.
It was like going back in time, we found bibles from relatives of hers from the mid 1800s with notes of different birth deaths and marriages we found books used to teach the art of music to children.
I found myself sitting in an old dusty rocking chair by the attic reading a book of songs from the early 1900s. In the back of the book were notes obviously written by a child being taught the beauty of music. He says “A dot at the side adds 1/2 the value of the note, A dot above the note takes away 1/2 the value of the note.” I could almost see a mother sitting knee to knee with him by a oil lite lamp and sharing the beauty of knowledge.
It made me feel the truth of a mothers love with a warmth that took me to the beginning of love.
This would be one of the songs they would have sang
There beside the winding way, sits a house with blossoms gay.
In the rosy evening glow, sits a mother cooning low.
Jan the cat with eyes aglow, deals the saucy gnats a blow.
Crooked walls lean awry, tiny pains reflect the sky.
On her cheeks the rose blooms mild, in her arms she holds her child.
Peace restored in her domain he settles down to sleep again.
In the doorway sunk and old.
Little rogue so fresh and sound.
Still the mother vigil keeps;
Hear the little watchdog scold!
Cheeks like apples red and round.
Softly know her baby sleeps.
round the eaves the swallows darting.
Now she strokes him gayly smiling.
Sees bright angels near him beaming.
Twitter of the sun’s departing.
Thus to sleep her son beguiling
In his little cradle dreaming.
by Cecil Cowdrey Mother and Child
Love was in the first heartbeat, and will be in the last one.
love always
I woke this morning to a brilliant sunrise. I got a hot cup of coffee in my hand and sat with a peace and serenity of the quiet of the moment. I looked at a tree that i have seen for nearly forty years, barren of any leaves now and standing naked to the coming winter, and it looked lonely. As i began to focus on this tree, I followed its lonely trunk from the earth of its roots to the tip of its last limb, and its beauty, its truth, its reason, began to touch my heart.
I began to feel the truth of life in this old barren naked tree. A tree, that began from a seed, nourished by the earth (that God so loves) of its roots. I carried my eyes up its trunk to the strong lower limbs tied tightly to the core of the life of that tender seed of years ago, and i followed it to the top of that tree of life, to the tender new limbs, able to withstand the storms and the winds of time always renewing with the buds of new love and life. I thought about the leaves this beautiful tree bears each year and shed to the earth below, an earth that decays them and again offers the nourishment of life, an opportunity for new leaves to again feel its beauty, and nourish the limbs of its love.
I felt the rain and the sunshine that it has stood silently, and patiently waiting for the heavens to open to it, and i feel the truth of its seed.
love the truth Doug
I know that i spend a lot of time on this site talking about family, love truth, but i am not so naive to not realize that there are many that step into this site for a moment or two that are seeking the love that they deserve, and have not felt. There is no sin greater that i can think of, then the abuse of an innocent mind, and there is no sadness greater then an innocent mind that believe they are unworthy of the love they deserve, but i also believe that if you have stepped into this site for a moment or two, then deep within your core you feel the purity of the love you deserve, and you are seeking to let it shine and be felt by all.
I can only offer you one assurance on this site, and that is, that the love you seek is the love that every person here wants, and wants you to have it to, it will be a love you can trust.
anybody else get Pat Benatar….. HELL IS FOR CHILDREN
They cry in the dark, so you can’t see their tears
They hide in the light, so you can’t see their fears
Forgive and forget, all the while
Love and pain become one and the same
In the eyes of a wounded child
Because Hell
Hell Is For Children
And you know that their little lives can become such a mess
Hell
Hell Is For Children
And you shouldn’t have to pay for your love with your bones and your flesh
It’s all so confusing, this brutal abusing
They blacken your eyes, and then apologize
You’re daddy’s good girl, and don’t tell mommy a thing
Be a good little boy, and you’ll get a new toy
Tell grandma you fell off the swing
Because Hell
Hell Is For Children
And you know that their little lives can become such a mess
Hell
Hell Is For Children
And you shouldn’t have to pay for your love with your bones and your flesh
No, Hell Is For Children
Hell
Hell is for Hell
Hell is for Hell
Hell Is For Children
Hell
Hell is for Hell
Hell is for Hell
Hell Is For Children
Hell
Hell is for Hell
Hell is for Hell
Hell Is For Children
Hell Is For Children
Hell Is For Children
Look into your heart, and youll walk with the beauty of your first breath.
LOVE IS WITHIN YOU
MC, is not a very good business cat. He decided to hire a mouse to police and offer security to his cat food. He had interviews all day with a very composed series of interview question, and he finally hired one.
I ask him why did you hire that one? He looked a little scrawny and didn’t seem to know alot about security. MC said it was the honesty of his answers during the interview. I said “what question”.
MC SAID, he ask him “Were do you wanta be in five year”? HE ANSWERED, “On paid leave”
Dam cat
When you look out your windows to the naked trees of your life, the answers to the naked questions of your mind, will be in the truth of your heart.
Love the truth
Like a star on high in a stormy sky,
hope will gild the darkest day,
hope will cheer the roughest day.
Winter snows, april rains,
bring summer again
darkestest nights turn to day
when the clouds roll away.
E. Jaques-Dalcroze HOPE
Sing till the sun drys your eyes..
love always
My journey has taken me so many differant places. It began try to know one heart, and it lead me to another, that has lead me to the hearts of a universe.
There are times when i cant feel the mind i have always trusted. I’m not scared, but i know I’m traveling with a different mind. Its becoming hard for me to look at anyone and not see there beauty. The mind i have always trusted to protect me from others is now allowing them to be seen by my heart.
There is a part of my mind that wants me to end my journey, and return to the comforts of it, but the truth i found in my heart is to precious to walk away from.
I have told you many times that i began this journey without fear, and i will end it without fear.
My mind was trained to deny fear, leaving me in denil of the truth of all the fears of life, fears that are with us all, fears that linger in the darkness of our dreams, fears that leave us distant from the beauty of all love.
I dont believe my journey has walked me into fear because i am not afraid, but i think it has walked me out of the denil of fear into the truth of love, and i think all i will feel now is its beauty.
If my naked truth offends you, then maybe you linger in your denil of fear.
Love Doug
MC SAYS: Its better to sleep in the crotch of a hummingbird, then to make a pillow out of a hornets nest.
THAT STUPID LITTLE SON OF A BITCH
Hes smoking mice tail soaked in embalming fluid..
Were can yo buy a goat?
dam cat
The mind that you have been trained to know, the mind that has given you comfort, the mind that you believed, the mind that you felt love in, the mind that you felt hate in, the mind that confused you, the mind that you trusted…. will die with the rest of your clay shell, and only the truth of your heart will live on.
how crazy is that?
ID RATHER LET MY MIND BE CRAZY, THEN MY HEART BE LONELY.
love the crazy in you…Doug
My last thought will be for my beautiful cousins as they stand with tears streaming from there tender cheeks tonight , as they hold each other with memories of a life time, and they wounder if the sun will ever dry there eyes. I offer these words offered from the angels of heaven.
Love and faithfulness meet together;
righteousness and peace kiss each other.
Faithfulness springs forth from the earth,
and righteousness looks down from heaven.
Love, faithfulness, peace and the righteousness of it all is looking down from heaven tonight, and kissing each of you.
Love cousin Doug
MC SAYS; The tears that soak your whiskers will leave the salt that will strengthen your soul.
bless his heart, that has to be the last word…
love that Dam cat
Awh screw his bony ass, he also licks that…
The strength of your soul began with your first heartbeat, and strengthened with everyone you felt after it.
feel the love in your heart
goodnight.. love ya aunt Norma
I am going to leave you with with one final thought. As i sit here to night, and think of the pain of my four sweet southern angels.
I also think of mine, and the pain of all that have felt your grief.
The selfishness of mankind is never ending, we live within the mind of a body that cant feel the heart of God.
The mind of the boy that that sat knee to knee with his mother a 100 years ago, and learned the beauty of music by an oil lamp, cried with the same tears that we do. The loss that he felt was no less then ours,but i believe his tear, as mine, might be a selfish waste of the beauty, and the glory of the moment we cant feel.
love Doug
You’re right this is MY journey! My mind is fearless.
“Regret for the things we did can be tempered by time; it is regret for the things we did not do that is inconsolable.” Sydney J. Harris
Are you PHONEY?
My thought tonight is on the harshest word i have used against people during my life. I have called people liars, cheaters, and i have used every vile explicative word imaginable in the mind of man to send my message to them, but the one word that i have use so many times that has brought them to there knees or brought them to a point of anger that left them fighting mad, is the word PHONEY.
You can tell a person there a lire, a cheater , you can call them an asshole, or worse, but if you tell them they are PHONEY it will go to the truth of there heart, and there mind will be fighting mad at you for telling them the truth they are not ready to know.
I have known this my whole life, but i didn’t understand it. I have used it my whole life, but i didn’t know the reason of its power.
THE REASON OF ITS POWER, is that you can be a liar and then chose not to be, you can be a cheat, and then chose not to be, you can be an asshole, then chose not to be, but if you are Phoney then you are not able to chose because you cant feel your heart, and when someone tells you that, you will be fighting mad, because somewhere in your heart you know they are telling you that you have lost the soul that touches God.
I wont ever use that word again, because i know that every heart can touch the love of God, and no one should ever be made to think otherwise.
love DOUG
MC SAYS: I will dress like a turkey on Thanksgiving morn, if I can be held in the lap of love Thanksgiving eve.
Dam his sweet ass
We begain our first dance on the morning of our first breath, and we will end it in the lap of the love we first felt.
love always
Is there any truth in my heart that you want to correct, is there any pain in my mind that you want to console, are there any words you want to share, is there any reason for me to listen. Have you found me as folly, have you found me as your amusement, have you felt me to be phoney, have you seen me without a soul.
I love you bro, and I dressed and danced like a turkey for you.
goodnight lishy
My LAST words will be to the administrators of this site.
Your beauty and your truth is what JESUS died for, it is not your minds that he touched but your hearts, and it is your hearts he want you to share with all.
I thank you for the time you have given me to journey to places i didn’t expect, and i hope that you will always be as gracious to future travelers.
Mindy, Bruce, Geo, Steve, thank you for your patients with me, i know i have tested it, but it has let me feel more then i knew i could, and for that i say THANK YOU.
ALL OF YOU HAVE BEAUTIFUL MINDS, and hearts that so many need to feel, and i will be watching, waiting, and wanting, like i did for the next words of a precious brother… Peace, and love always Doug
Well, well well! I have a couple-a hours to myself after looking after 6 little kids under the age of 7, (my Aussie g’kids). Quite a busy time for me at the ripe age of 3 score and ten!! I’ve been here nearly 4 weeks and have used up my time off tonight reading through all the threads including MCs ‘wisdom’. I feel sadness for you at the death of yet another family member, and compassion for those that I have read of being in pain, particularly Mindy, so what I would like to encourage you all with is simply this. Within you is the source of LIFE. You were created in the beginning when the word spoke – long before you were clothed with a body in your mother’s womb. Your reality is spirit and not the human shell you reside in that you see when looking in the mirror. Learning to live from the spirit within you, is a LIFE that will touch every cell in your body, quickening it, changing its tempo so that you will eventually learn that this body of ours as it is willingly given over to become part of his glorious body will show forth HIS reality which cannot be corrupted and will NEVER die. This is the body we are called to be – it is the spirit’s express wish that we should be those chosen to manifest the glory of the Christ spirit. Are you able to HEAR this?
First off Doug??? I love coming to the site to read your words. I get happy knowing that a new comment was written by Doug. Maybe the dynamics of this site have changed a bit since Dad died, but I personally love what is happening and encourage you to keep it up and keep following your heart and sharing it with us. I would love for anyone to write the words of their heart here whenever they feel the need to do so. That is what it is all about. Doug, you bring me encouragement and laughter.
Audrey,
I have missed you so badly. Each person here brings something different to this site that I love sooo much, but I feel a strange connection to you. Your words flow through me and I feel my spiritual connection to my Dad. You said, “Within in you is the source of LIFE” and that is what I have been feeling. I have tried to deny it here lately because of the pain, but I can’t anymore. I can hear it Audrey. I can hear it!!
I’m just getting back home from a long few days and Mindy, I love What you said about Cliff, Mom and the ice cream. She LOVED ice cream. That was such a perfect picture to come home to. Love you guys!
I just got home from being with ur angels uncle Doug! Of course I was late, but they expect that from me. What a great night we had. We set up Grandma’s Christmas tree, ate some pizza, talked a bit about life and danced and laughed to the sound of music.
All of these things happened because we are wrapped up in a lifetime of love from those who have passed away and because of those who are still living. Family and friends are so important. We can all learn soo much from each other. We have so much to give. If we open our eyes and really look deep into the hearts of others we will see that perfection that God created. We don’t need a church to see it. We don’t even need the bible to understand it. It is just simply within each of us already. We just need to acknowledge it.
Christ died on the cross for not just one, but for all. He lives within each of us and when we look at each other we see the face of God. We each have our own story to tell, but it is the feelings behind the stories that we need to touch some how. Listen closely to what you are hearing and be selfless to them in that moment. Put yourself in their shoes in order to understand their feelings and hope they do the same for you. Be strong in who you are and what you need. Don’t deny yourself of what you deserve as a human being. You are labled many things in this life, but one thing you are for sure is simply human. Trust yourself. Trust that you know what is best for you. You are never right and you are never wrong. It is a perfect process that you walk in. Everything that happens happens because it is suppose to. Teach yourself and others along the way that Love never fails even when you think it has failed…it has never ever failed and as my friend Kat would say…never miss out on an opportunity to tell someone that you love them.
Here’s a story.
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Last week the twins here turned 2. Being absolutely identical twins they have a special relationship with each other, but at times they get possessive over something or other and there’s loud crying, hair-pulling and sometimes biting. The noise can be atrocious. I was in the office with the window open, watching over such an outburst when neither wanted to give way to the other. They hadn’t spotted me. I was about to respond to the screaming from my head as the ‘good’ granny laying down the rules of ‘good kind’ behaviour, when I did a quick heart-check. Instead of interfering and adding to the general rukkus I felt to wait quietly, watching and listening with hands covering ears. Suddenly one let go both the toy and the other’s hair, reached out and hugged the other, who also released the toy, then they stood apart and began to laugh, leaning over towards each other, hands on knees. Then the toy and the fight forgotten they wandered off together hand in hand. It was such a beautiful thing to see. What do you think had happened in that split second that so vastly changed their behaviour? One had turned from head-thinking to rock solid heart-feeling action, (that place deep within us all, call it – “deep feelings,” “knowing place,”) and related to his brother from the feeling that came from his heart. That feeling was love and metanoio or turning to heart-thinking took him there. The fighting behaviour showed their egotistical head-thinking. I’m not saying all their quarrels are so beautifully made up, but I could have easily ruined this particular moment by reacting from my head as a ‘responsible grown-up’. Believe me, being where I am at present with 6 little kids under the age of 7 has taught me a lot about obeying in the moment from my heart and not my head. Hope this little story encourages you to stop, and turn from head to heart IN THAT MOMENT OF NEED.
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I return to NZ Sunday – then I can access your site more easily without disruption!!! Meantime keep going deeper – it’s the only way to REALITY – even babies of just 2 can get there!!
That is such a beautiful story Audrey, of the innocent beauty of the innocent heart. It offers such a touching truth that even an old mind like mine is able to regress for a moment to feel the innocent beauty within each of us. It is a difficult transition to allow the way your mind thinks, to change from years of taught beliefs, to a mind the feels the love in this universe, and reacts to each moment with the the innocent beauty of a child. Love the moments.. granny!
Love Doug
Hilarious to picture!! LOVE IT!!!!!! It is within us all we just gotta go a little deeper.
Mindy, I could hear the words of your father speaking so clearly in the purity of your thoughts…both your fathers…you are so perfect.
Hope grandma didn’t wear you out!
Love my angels.. Doug