As we all prepare for the beautiful day tomorrow. As i sit here tonight with my home filled with the wonderful scent of chocolate chip cookies being baked by loving hands, and the best cole slaw ever made by a crazy uncle being chilled in my refrigerator, i must remind myself of the reason of our celebration.
It has no great biblical purpose that i know of, it has no great historical significance that I’m aware of, but it is simply a time that we decided many years ago to give thanks for all that we have.
It is not a time for us not to give thanks for the turkey on our table that others dont have, it is not a time for us to thank God for the warm home that we will gather in that others wont, it is not a time for us to offer in prayers of thanks of all that we have been blessed with as others sit alone, but it is a time to give THANKS to a God that gave us a heart that can feel the hungry, the cold, the lonely, and the love to make a difference on this earth (he so loves).
I put the turkey costume on MC earlier tonight to try it out for tomorrow morning, he resisted at first, and now he wont let me take it off of him. He says he wants to sleep in it because it makes him feel closer to Clucky.
Dam cat.. he is so sentimental, and he looks so cute strutting around.
mc says: The truth in Thanksgiving can be found between the breasts and the giblets.
oh my God.. that cats so horny thinkin about clucky!
Im gonna have to buy a Ginney hen to get him out of his costume.
dAM CAT
My last thought to night will a word of wisdom to my angels. All things in this life are forgivable, but there are some that will be regrettable. It is always regrettable to walk by an opportunity to leave an indelible image in the minds of the angels you love. A regret that i refuse to have, so listen clearly, as i leave u with a vivid thought that will wake u in the night and make you laugh with your last breath.
Your 60 year old uncle will dance tomorrow morning to the tune of earth wind and fire with a cat dressed like a turkey, as my naked ass with a feather in it wakes your aunt….awh such a sweet memory… love ya angels.
Good morning to you, Good morning to you
Love always
Doug, your contributions on Jim’s blog make thrilling reading for me because I feel I know you a little (and MC too) and I can see how you’ve grown, also especially as I’m involved to some degree. You are distinguishing between the two ‘worlds’ and ’seeing’ them with your spiritual eyes. When living from the world of the tree of knowledge, we are unable to see or even understand the other world, the world of the spirit or in biblical terms ‘the Kingdom’. A lot of those intellectuals that write in cannot understand what you have seen. They are trying to figure it out in their minds and of course this is the wrong source – it is only understood when we access our heart. You can tell the ’source’ people are accessing when you read through their posts. They either have LIFE or they are the walking dead! I remember when you said you ‘felt’ something I’d written but didn’t understand it, so you read it over and over again. That took humility, determination and a hunger for the truth. You have experienced this ‘higher’ dimension of REALITY because you had the courage to listen to your heart – you also had a brother who had ’seen’ this new world and had tasted a little of the blessings to be had as we enter into it. He had a taste, but there’s much more. JC said ‘blessed are they who hunger and thirst after perfection (righteousness) because they will be satisfied’. Keep hungering Doug! You guys in USA are about to have your Thanksgiving dinners, but I tell you, there’s nothing that can touch the satisfaction that comes with living from the source of the BREAD OF LIFE!
Doug
My neighbor (which one not sure) a couple of yrs ago released tame rabbits into the neighborhood. We now have all types of mixed rabbits running around my yard! Maybe you can send MC to Pittsburgh to have Dinner from the bountiful harvest that is RABBIT in my yard?
lOVE THE VISION OF THE RABBITS IN YOUR YARD GEO… DOUG, NOT SO MUCH…HA HA HA HA HA!!
JUST KIDDING! I AM GOING TO CRANK UP THE MUSIC. HOW ABOUT A LITTLE OF THE SUPREMES FOR YOU MOMMA!!!
Happy Thanksgiving to Everyone! You all will be in my thoughts and all have my deepest gratitude for your continuing to make me laugh, cry, love and learn! Can’t wait to hear your stories of the day. Do give Aunt Barb my love and appreciation as well and to your whole family. I’m so very blessed to have such a host of cousins, aunts, uncles, neices, nephews that go on for generations. I love each and every one of you!!
I do want to share just one story that happened during the last week of events. Kenny & I stayed at a nice hotel when we were in Florence because he wanted me to have a place of refuge to be able to go to when and if in need. He is my rock through this all. And even though he is and was so awesome as far as being there for me and giving me what I need, telling me I’m pretty or look good is not one of his strengths but it was my moms. She was the one that ALWAYS would tell me how good I looked even up to almost the last breath and certainly the last million times I saw her. Anyway, just saying, my mom is really about the only person that will tell me how good I look and that was just one of the many things I remember thinking that I was going to miss. The morning we were leaving the hotel to come back home, housekeeping knocked on the door and I answered and she said, I’m sorry, I was just checking to see if you all had checked out yet and I told her we would be in just about 15 minutes. And she said, you look familiar, do you live around here? I said, well I had moved to the Nashville area 3 years ago but had worked at Listerhill Credit union for almost 20 years, that maybe she knew me from there and she says, oh yes, that’s it, I worked at Shoals Tubular and youwould cash my check every Thursday and I said, yes, I remember and then I told her why we were there, that my mom had passed away, (side note) but I do like the way my little sister had it put in the paper, stopped dying and began living, Anyway she expressed her condolences and then she looked at me straight in the eye and in a very confident, strong voice, said, “You look Good!” I don’t know, I may be grasping at straws but I immediatley felt like it was a sign from my mom letting me know she was still with me and always would be.
What a wonderful day today, as i sit with a belly full of love, I can still feel the shining warmth of the light of all the perfect moments. A light that will warm me on this old cold rainy night till my heart passes the beauty of my day off to the dreams of my of my undying heart.
Much of my family approached this day with dread of the pain they would have of the absence of of the moment that they would feel when the presents of a perfect soul was not there, but each arrived with the beauty of there hearts. They danced with the strength of a white stallion racing up a hill, they danced with the hearts of a lion protecting its cubs, and they danced with love of a man, a husband, a father, a son, a brother, grandfather, and a friend to all mankind.
They came in dread of feeling his absence, and i cant answer for there hearts if the left that way, but i can answer for my heart, and i can tell you he was with us.
I stood and listened to the beautiful words shared with all of us by my sweet nephew Cliff. He shared his own words written with the same beauty of his fathers hand, and he shared wonderful word of love hope and family, word written from the deepest part of his heart and mind. He also shared words written by his father that spoke the the same truth of love, words that stuck our minds, and hearts.
As i stood there by my brother looking out over the tender sweet souls of my family, tears flowing from every eye like lava from a mountain top, i chose to not let my mind feel his absence.
THERE WAS SUCH A DANCE GOING ON IN ME, as looked and listen to that moment. I MIND WAS BEGGING ME TO FEEL THE PAIN OF HIS LOSS, but i chose to feel his presents in my heart.
I know if you wont “get” this, because I’m not sure that i do, or at least, I’m not able to tell it to you in a way you will understand, but when i let my heart know that moment and denied my mind it desire to feel it, it was at that moment i felt a presents of Cliff within me, and he was pleased to feel mine. This is why i can tell you for sure, that the man we miss was the angel i felt in my heart tonight, AND HE WAS PLEASED.
Love will be found on thanksgiving between the first hug(which was my sis Nan) and your last kiss (which was my sis Nan) and the moments between, he was there Nan, and he was pleased.
love Doug
As i returned home tonight, I found MC all curled up asleep, still in his turkey suit. Beneath him i found a love letter he had written to Clucky.
I know that he would be embarrassed and humiliated to know that i would share it with you all, but after all he is just a cat, and a pain in my ass, so here goes.
Dearest Clucky;
All Though we are now separated by time and miles, my heart can feel you like the gentle breeze on a whisker, or a rain drop on your tender beek. Our love was broken by the uncommon desire to blend fur and feather of minds that cant flock together, nor purr of the warmth of our love, but my heart tells me that the beauty of love is not in your amazing plume, or in my sleek and warm pelt, but is in the beauty of our hearts…
He musta feel asleep here… maybe he is a pretty good sufa student
I love that cat, and it will be the last word…
There aint no way that stupid ass horny all romantic cats getting the last word on Thanksgiving day! Dam cat.
The time you spend in your mind traveling to the source of you pain will leave you lost under a street light on a dead end street, but the moment you chose to travel in your heart to the love you seek, will jettison you to the end of the universe in the blink of a eye.
The beauty of my day was interrupted by a phone call from my son, saying that he had stopped at the nursing home on his way out of town, and had found his grama upset, she began crying a told him that they were trying to get her to eat more then she wanted to.
My wife had made a plate of food for the visit we had plan to make, as we arrived we put a feast of all the dishes that the day had provided in front of her, and she was content.
What my son saw on his visit was a lonely and scared mind. A human mind in terrible conditions, being carried for as well as can be expected.
The fear and the loneliness that she must feel is requiring every bit of strength that she must have in her heart to live each day.
I believe that her her fear, her loneliness, her wanting for what she had, her anger for what she lost, and her desperation to change it, are all reasonable, expected feelings of the mind. I also believe that the only strength that she has to deal with all of these things found in her mind will be the true strength she had in her heart before.
When i was a young man i once ask my dad, “Is there anything that would make you want to commit suicide”? He said, “As long as i have my mind i would never want to do that”. Wow, you cant imagine how many times ive played that out in my mind. I finally came to the conclusion that he offered an aware to a son that he would never want to consider that way out of this life, he was smart enough to know that if i would survive anything as long as i had my mind, then if i didn’t have it, it wasn’t in my control anyway.
I do believe myself to be a survivor of this life, and i dont believe it would ever be right for me to end it by my own hand as long as i have my mind, but i think Dad i need to add a little something to that.
I will never take my own life as long as i have my mind, and heart. I know that this life can leave you desperate, lonely, afraid, but i also know the spirit of Gods strength that my wife’s mother sought every Sunday in her church she felt in her mind, and now its the strength of gods love in her heart she needs, and her mind cant feel it.
I gently took MCs turkey suit off as he slept, he woke for a moment with teary eyes, and i softly placed him in my lap, and told him that the beauty in his heart would know the love he desperately wants to feel, as he drifted off into the dreams of the truth.
love always
We all can learn from the beautiful innocence of a child’s mind, we just have to take moment to feel the truth of it.
My 2 1/2 year old Rootbeer wore out by the excitement of life, and late for his nappie was convinced to sit at the table with the big people and have one of gramas chocolate chip cookies. A napkin was neatly placed in front of him and a single cookie was offered, but he wouldn’t eat it. He keep telling papaw something over and over till i finally understood that he wanted the whole plate of cookies beside him, so i put them all within his reach and he was happy.
It made me realize how many people have been offered a cookie, a bit of jesus love, if they did this or did that. A cookie that had conditions, such as keep it on the napkin, sit in your seat , and be silent, but i think jesus wants you to have the whole plate of his cookies, without any conditions.
Eat slow my friends because his cookie are sweet.
love always
I am growing tired now, and wish that this heart could bring forth the moments it feels on occasion, anytime. I wish i could have held my sweet sis in my arms the moment i felt the presenst of the love of her life within me, but i can tell you this for sure.. he was pleased, he is not lost, he is not absent, and the sprit of his soul is as warming as the sun on your face.
love Doug
Thanks doug for sharing your beautiful words. I’m so glad you all got to be together and share precious memories and just enjoy one another. Such a blessing. Even though my Thanksgiving was very different than the large goups with much family around, I believe it was still perfect for me. My sister Linda and her husband Jeff and children Nathan and Mitchell met Kenny & I at the cracker barrell and ate our Thanksgiving dinner together. I know some women really like to cook and others I’m sure just do it out of obligation or necessity but for Linda & I this was just perfect, no cleaning, no cooking, no preparing of the house, just good food and good company and the sharing of our love for each other.
To all the Cliff Hazelber family I’d just like to say that you’ve gotten the 1st thanksgiving over with Cliff being there but just in a different form. It’s tough since we’re such a people of sight and sound but thankfully we’re also a people of hope, love, grace, mercy and trust. I absolutley know he was there in spirit along with Uncle Tooday and the others gone on before just like my mom and dad were with Linda & I at the cracker barell and with Connie and her family and Jackie and his. That’s whats cool about the spirit world, they can be with us all at once even though we’re miles apart. Love you all so very much! Keep on dancing and singing!
Your southern cuz,
Lisa (Actually I was born in Indiana you know so I do go both ways )
Doug, I would like you to tell Cindy that I love her even though I don’t know exactly what she’s going through, I do know what it is like to have your mom in a nursing home and all the guilt, shame, and confusion that goes along with it. I know about the second guessing and the wondering can I do more, should I do different, are there more options, am I doing right, am I doing wrong, are they treated her the way she needs to be treated, do I need to take her into my home, do I need to just move into the nursing home to be beside her and how long? How long will she have to live like this? How long will I have to live like this? uh oh there goes the guilt again and on and on and on. And for the grandkids, man, I think its hard for them to see their grama in a whole different light but to please know she does still love them very much and they can still love her and also their mom is doing the very best she can for her and then some! It’s just such a difficult time for all involved but it doesn’t last forever so as crazy as it might sound, Seize the day! Please tell Cindy if she ever just needs someone to talk to or scream at or just cuss like a sailor, I am here for her. I’ve been there and if I can do anything to help her walk through this to just please let me know. Love you all!!
Holly crappolly, I’m on another path in my journey, and lovin it!
ARE YOU MADE IN THE IMAGE OF GOD?
Didn’t he say let us make them in my image? What did he mean? Dose that mean that God has a big nose like my brother Andy? Dose that mean that GOD has blonde hair like my angel Amy, ears that can lay back like a mad cat like my angel Mandy. Dose God snort when he laughs like my angel Tammy, or fart when he laughs like my angel Mindy. Dose he have bony legs like my angel Angie, or the perfect Smile like my angel Sarah (love my baby girl). Dose God get hemroids when he sits to long on that golden throne, and ponders his universe, or pimples if he shares to many chocolate chips cookies with his angels?
I dont think so… I think the true image of God would be of a man with thinning hair turning a bit gray. A man with hazel eye, that stand about 5′8″ in sandals, and is missing one joint in four of his fingers from the day of his birth.
As i said this is a new path in my journey, and I’m not absolutely sure I’m correct in my conclusions yet, but I’m thinkin right now if you got all you fingers you might not be as close to his image as i am.
Mc is so pissed at me. I left my computer unlocked, and the mices downloaded his love letter and posted it on my space, and face book. Hes walking around in sunglasses,and calling me the evil master. He qouting something out of his kitty bible 1 catryinthians “The gossip of a master will leave his lap empty”.
Mc is wanting to reconcile, but he is demanding the last word tonight, so as the good master i will afford him his moment.
MC SAYS: The twisted tails of the heartless. The cheesy breath of deception. The squeaky squeals of lies, are the distance between us and the image of GOD.
i LOVE tHat CaT…AND THAT IS THE LAST WORD!
That little freaking bastard is Rollin around purring with a smirk on his face, like he just set free the hearts of every dam mices, chicken, and coyote in the universe. ILL BE DAMMED IF ILL LET HIS LITTLE ARRAGANT ASS HAVE THE LAST WORD in a world God said I would dominate.
The twisted pain in your mind, the chilling burn of confusion, the cold walk in loneliness, the darkened fear of an endless night, is warmed with the pleasing comfort of the morning sun, is wrapped in the cotton blankets of truth, that the image of god is the love in your heart.
HES STARRING AT ME NOW WITH YELLOW EYES GLOWING WITH THE ANGRY FIRE OF THE SUN.
Stand with me my friends as i brave his wrath, and once again bring him back to the lap of love he so desperately wants.
love that cat in your heart,
Doug
Its US and THEM.
genesis 1:26
Then God said, “Let us make man in our image, in our likeness, and let them rule over the cats, the fish of the sea and the birds of the air, over the livestock, over all the earth, and over all the creatures that move along the ground.”
Who is the US, who is the them? DID GOD HAVE A PARTNER IN OUR CREATION?
more to come
love Doug.. I love walking in a dizzy daze of love.
There is a part of me that thinks that only the image of God that is within me stands above, and rules the hearts of THE CATS THE FISHES THE BIRDS THE LIVESTOCK, AND THE MIND OF THIS CLAY SHELL.
Hum… still walkin
love always
If i can stop one hear from breaking
I shall not live in vain
If i can ease one life the aching
Or cool one pain
Or help one fainting robbin
Unto its nest again,
I shall not have lived in vain.
I believe Emily Dicickinson wrote this in 1830 feeling the heart of CIFF HAZELBAKER IN 2009
MC SAYS, a master that is untruthful to the minds of its followers should be ex-cat-municated from the catthouleel church of the kingdom of cats.
I’m sorry.. but f.k that Dam cat, I’m gonna sellin his dam ass to the circus.
love always
Dam cat.
He wants that to be the last word, but the last word will be by the master of love.
They say what we are will never change, but who we are never stops changing. I think that the mind we live in will always be the same, but the heart we can feel will take us to places we cant imagine.
LET YOUR EYES GLOW YELLOW TILL YOU FEEL THE LOVE OF THE SON.
love always
The image of God, wow.. some will say the image of God is the ability of man to reason, some will say it the ability for man to have relationships… hum, i like that.. the thought that the love ive had for 40 years for a woman was the image of a God within me that i never felt, is pretty cool.
The image of God,, oh how sweet is that, and to know its who you are. To know that its an image that goes beyond your mind, and will let you love one person for forty years with out you feeling it, and all of mankind for all of eternity once you do.
love always
The night has a thousand eyes to feel the beauty in a single heart in the light of the sun.
The night has a thousand eyes,
and the day has but one;
Yet the light of the bright world dies,
with the dying sun.
The mind has a thousand eyes,
and the heart has but one;
Yet the light of the whole life dies,
when love is done.
William Bourdillion
Love is never done, Love never dies, Love never fails ,and its light is eternal.
love Doug
I had an invitation from someone tonight for me to share the pain in my life with them, and i was told that by that i would be able to feel better, less pain… hum. To take the pain in my mind and give it to some other mind, and for them to feel it in there mind, and then to have them reassure me that my pain is real, expected, and acceptable is to me only a comforting feeling that the minds of man are comforting, compassionate, and seeking to reaffirm there pain is justified in there mind.
I WONT SHARE YOUR PAIN ANY LONGER.
If i cant offer you the image of God with in you, if i cant help you see the “let US make them”, by God and his son, if i cant help you feel peace joy and the love you deserve, then i have no purpose, because my heart tells me to help your feel your pain is not in the image of God.
I wont share your pain any longer, but i will feel it, and i will be there to love you with every moment of it.
You are the perfect image of God with every breath you take, and he wants so much for you to know that.. he made you in his image.
Feel his love.
Doug
mC SAYS: THE love you see in a rainbow, is the beauty found in the plume of a chickens tail.
I am so feed up with his horny romantic crap.
I’m having him neutered. The next time you hear from his bony ass will be in a higher voice.
Awh hes got a paw in the air like hes testifying, saying “I BELEVIE IN LOVE”: Ya gotta love him.
Hes saying to me “you promise me that last word master”
Dam cat is right.. i did
Ive gota life time of experaince as a man that can help you to develope a good work ethic. I can teach you how to dance with minds smarter then yours. I can show you how to survive walking in a snake pit. I can take you to the lies of life that will make all love you, and i can tell you of the phony truth of that journey.
You got a chance here kids to hear a truth i didn’t hear.
For every time in your life that you feel that you are above anyone else, for every time in your life you didn’t touch the one you could have, for every time in your life that you dont have time to smile, nod your head, open a door, say thank you, will be a time in your life you will regret.
For every moment in your life that you spend feeling anger, hate, guilt, unworthiness, will be wasted lies in your mind.
You got a chance here kids.
The bullshit of this life wont change because of the truth you can feel in your heart, the hate of mankind will continue. The vile nature of man will leave you wanting to feel the kingdom of God within you more and more, and you will be confused between your mind and your heart. The nature of man the snake pit we must walk in a place I could teach you to walk without fear,is not the place you want to feel.
YOU ARE MY BRAVE ANGELS, and you will dance the dance i am dancing.
With the truth i know, and you will make the angel of all that will be with you…Pleased
love Uncle Doug
This is for my latin hippy bony leg angel.
lord have mercy, lord have mercy on me,
lord have mercy, lord have mercy on me
though ive tried to find my baby boy
wont someone bring him home.
My last word will be of the beauty of a wild flower, only seen by the desert sun. The perfect love of God, never felt by man. A beauty that stands in the wind, rain, and the storms. A beauty that stands naked for all to see. A beauty that withers, and cries alone, wanting only for a single eye to adorn its beauty. A flower that will plant its seed for the beauty of its heart to dance once again to feel the chance of the love of the son.
I would really like to go, and my mind and body wants me to, but my heart lingers every night to feel the heartbeat I let die.
I know you cant see me, or feel me as i sit here, pulling my sleeves up, rubbing my head, staring off to fight the tears. I know you cant know the guilt of a boy that wasn’t man enough to protect the life of a perfect heartbeat. I know you dont understand the pain of two score and more,but please try to understand that the pain i feel at this time, and have felt for many years is in my mind, and the heartbeat that i cry for is holding my heart, and i know that.
The mind wants to feel your pain, but my perfect star wants to feel my heart, and let me know he is pleased.
I will sleep now
love Doug
Now that we have established that the true image of God will be found in all mankind with short fingers. How do we recognize it? What dose the image of God look like?
We are told that GOD created THEM, Man and Woman, male and female, we are told that he blessed THEM, and that he named THEM man, from those word I would be incline to conclude that all thought the body of man might have different genders, the image of God with in us will not have, and both genders are equal in Gods spirit.
We also know that God is spirit, the creator, and that we are the created in his image. We know that Jesus is the perfect example of what the image of God is, and from his example we can touch the sprit of GOD, and from that I would conclude that to touch the image of god, we must feel the sprit within us.
I believe I have only began to touch the image of God within me, much like what Audrey speaks of when she talks of the beautiful truth Metanoia ( a shift in the mindset, a view of truth in the heart, the soul , and the spirit) the image of God was give to all of us from the began, and to feel that likeness we must begin by knowing that the image of God will not be found in all the things that we are, but will be felt in all the thing we do.
The IMAGE OF GOD is felt by man when he feels love, peace, joy, of mankind in the same spirit of his likeness. I believe I have touched the spirit of God within me, and when I say touch, I mean that I have felt the tip of JESUS FINGER LIGHTLY BRUSH THE PALM OF MY HAND for a fleeting moment, and now I desperately want to feel his full embrace for all eternity. If the soft brush of his fingertip on the palm of my soul in a fleeting moment can offer such a magical and beautiful light in my heart, what will the full wisdom of his love be like? Wow.
As you ponder the image of God within you, as you try and decide if it’s the ability of man to reason , to plan, to fellowship, to walk upright, remember the image of God that is within you to feel, is a God of unconditional, limitless, undying LOVE.
STILL WAKIN TOWARDS THE LIGHT, STILL SEARCHIN FOR THE TRUTH!
Aint it fun.
LOVE ALWAYS Doug..Gooo000OOO Coo00OOOLTS
Thanks for sharing Doug, just beautiful! It is about finding that love within ourselves, isn’t it? God is love and if He made us in His image, than we are love. Where I’m at on my journey is I do believe that without being in touch with that love inside or God, which ever way one wants to say it, without that, though, I am very self-centered, that it is only when I tap into that love or power which, imo, is God, can I be a loving human. Lisa doesn’t really want to share or scarifice but the love within Lisa can’t help but. Does that make any sense?
It is great Lisa, and so wonderful to keep the mind(the heart of love) open to all the possibilities of Gods mystical and magical love.
Plato had a great analogy of the things we dont clearly understand.
Plato’s Cave Analogy
Plato used the analogy of the cave to illustrate his idea of forms. The analogy goes like this:
Imagine several prisoners who have been chained up in a cave for all of their lives. They have never been outside the cave. They face a wall in the cave and they can never look at the entrance of the cave. Sometimes animals, birds, people, or other objects pass by the entrance of the cave casting a shadow on the wall inside the cave. The prisoners see the shadows on the wall and mistakenly view the shadows as reality.
However, one man breaks free from his chains and runs out of the cave. For the first time, he sees the real world and now knows that it is far beyond the shadows he had been seeing. He sees real birds and animals, not just shadows of birds and animals.
This man is excited about what he sees and he goes back to his fellow prisoners in the cave to tell them about the real world. But to his astonishment, they don’t believe him. In fact, they are angry with him. They say the shadows are reality and that the escaped prisoner is crazy for saying otherwise.
POINT OF THE CAVE ANALOGY: According to Plato, the world outside the cave represents the world of forms while the shadows on the wall represent objects in the physical world. The escape of the prisoner represents philosophical enlightenment and the realization that forms are the true reality. Most people are like the prisoners in the cave. They think the shadows are reality. Philosophers, though, are like the man who escapes the cave and sees the real world. They have true knowledge.
keep on walk-in cuz, and keep on search-in.
love always Doug
Anytime I think I have all the answers and am just so sure of myself and use words such as ALWAYS and NEVER without bing open to others point of view, I shut myself off from truth and love, imo.
One thing I discovered these last few days is my brother and sisters and I are very different in many ways and if we’re left to just our own selves, our own thoughts and feelings without taping into that love, then we’d probably kill each other or at least hate each other but because of God’s love that is within each of us, we can put those differences aside and realize, nothing is so important to jeapordize loving one another. Nothing. That is the image in which I think we are created. Because of Him, I can love and serve and not just want to fill my own selfish desires or think MY way is best but be open to others thoughts and feelings. God is doing that for us and to Him I am eternally grateful!
That is so true Lisa, and i could say the same of my brothers, but we have an undying love for each other that goes beyond the mind of man, and into the heart of eternal love of something greater then the laws that confuse us.
your so beautiful cuz.. keep walkin
Doug
This for my Sis as we dance our happy dance in the wake of the tromphat Colts
When I think back on these times
And the dreams we left behind
I’ll be glad cause I was blessed to get to have you in my life
When I look back on these days
I’ll look and see your face
You were right there for me
In my dreams I’ll always see you soaring by the sky
In my heart there’ll always be a place for you
For all my life
I’ll keep a part of you with me
And everywhere I am there you’ll be
And everywhere I am there you’ll be
Well you showed me how it feels
To feel the sky within my reach
And I always will remember all the strength you gave to me
You’re love made me make it through
Oh I owe so much to you
You were right there for me
In my dreams I’ll always see you soaring by the sky
In my heart there’ll always be a place for you
For all my life
I’ll keep a part of you with me
And everywhere I am there you’ll be
Cause I always saw in you my light, my strength
And I want to thank you now for all the ways
You were right there for me
(You were right there for me)
You were right there for me
For always
In my dreams I’ll always see you soaring by the sky
In my heart there’ll always be a place for you
For all my life
I’ll keep a part of you with me
And everywhere I am there you’ll be
And everywhere I am there you’ll be
There you’ll be..
The walk dont have to be sad Sis, because everywhere you are there he will be.
LETS STUT THAT HAPPY DANCE FOR HIM.
Love ya Sis… we bad..we bad
Am i the only one the looks back on the comments they make, and is immediately sent back to a thirteen years old boy walking across a basketball floor at a sock hop to a pimply faced girl to ask for a dance only to have her drop her head, shrouding her face with her hair and shaking her head NO in rejection, and then making the long walk back to the snickering smirks of my friends?
It still at sixty years old only takes a misspelled word, or a an illogical stated thought for me to make that long walk in shame, but i will as long as i feel there is one pimply faced soul across my dance floor that might want me to make that walk. …then i will be triumphant … IT WILL NOT BE IN VIEN.
LOVE ALWAYS
I’m a pimply faced soul so NO IT IS NOT IN VAIN. Your help to me is tremendous and I do understand your feelings very much and share them as well. In fact, I had noticed I had bing instead of being and it bugged me!
I keep thinking that there will be a point that i have shared all that my heart has to give, and that all that have listened can sort the crap from the truth. I KEEP THINKING I HAVE ONLY SO MUCH TO SHARE, but i started this journey with nothing to share, but silly stories of a couple of brothers, and a love we felt.
My endless story will end much like it started with an endless love, and the endless truth to share of it.
As i dance my endless dance, i wounder who’s hand have i held. Who’s shy and innocent heart has accept my dance. Who’s beautiful and shinning face has look up into my face, HAS LOOKED INTO MY HEART, and stood and walked with me to the center of the dance floor, and twirled in the love of the light.
The pain of the denil of love has been felt in in this mind, but the beauty of shy and innocent love shrouded in the hair of a bowed head unable to look up to the light of truth leaves me still willing to walk across that long dark and lonely floor.
Did i ever tell you i was the lead sing in the band called the Rebels.. dose anyone wanta dance?
love always
Thanks Doug that says it all for me! I am gonna dance and I will dance like only Cliff is watching:)
I love you so much and I am so blessed to have the Hazelbaker family. You have seen me through the good times and the bad and you will see me through to the end and I will always be here for you.
I go to another site of God loving souls, and over and over i hear there pain to feel God. They are people that have mostly left organized religion because it left them empty, they are very intellectual and have arrived to the place they are because there mind couldn’t logically accept the laws of there religion… hum
I am so lucky.. ya see i never had any expectations of God, and the only laws i lived by were the one that i thought i wouldn’t get caught breaking, or the ones i was taught as a little boy from people that i knew loved me.
I think its easier for me cause I’m not confused by a lot of B/S and i can sort the crap from the truth with a mind that feels God. Dose that make since?
TALK TO ME
love Doug
WALK WITH A REBEL.. DANCE WITH A SKINNY BOY IN BELL BOTTOM HIP HUGGERS, TILL THE STARS OF THE NIGHT LET YOU SEE THE SON OF THE DAY, ILL TURN THE LIGHTS OFF TILL YOU YOU KISS THE MOMENT OF TRUTH.
love the moments
Same to you Geo, no worry of that, after Clucky hes scarrrrrrieeed of anything bigger then a mices.
love ya bro , have a good one
PEACE
As we all prepare for the beautiful day tomorrow. As i sit here tonight with my home filled with the wonderful scent of chocolate chip cookies being baked by loving hands, and the best cole slaw ever made by a crazy uncle being chilled in my refrigerator, i must remind myself of the reason of our celebration.
It has no great biblical purpose that i know of, it has no great historical significance that I’m aware of, but it is simply a time that we decided many years ago to give thanks for all that we have.
It is not a time for us not to give thanks for the turkey on our table that others dont have, it is not a time for us to thank God for the warm home that we will gather in that others wont, it is not a time for us to offer in prayers of thanks of all that we have been blessed with as others sit alone, but it is a time to give THANKS to a God that gave us a heart that can feel the hungry, the cold, the lonely, and the love to make a difference on this earth (he so loves).
lOVE DOUG
I put the turkey costume on MC earlier tonight to try it out for tomorrow morning, he resisted at first, and now he wont let me take it off of him. He says he wants to sleep in it because it makes him feel closer to Clucky.
Dam cat.. he is so sentimental, and he looks so cute strutting around.
IM STILL BUYIN A GOAT
mc says: The truth in Thanksgiving can be found between the breasts and the giblets.
oh my God.. that cats so horny thinkin about clucky!
Im gonna have to buy a Ginney hen to get him out of his costume.
dAM CAT
Truth in Thanksgiving will be felt between you first kiss tomorrow, and you last hug.
love the moments between
My last thought to night will a word of wisdom to my angels. All things in this life are forgivable, but there are some that will be regrettable. It is always regrettable to walk by an opportunity to leave an indelible image in the minds of the angels you love. A regret that i refuse to have, so listen clearly, as i leave u with a vivid thought that will wake u in the night and make you laugh with your last breath.
Your 60 year old uncle will dance tomorrow morning to the tune of earth wind and fire with a cat dressed like a turkey, as my naked ass with a feather in it wakes your aunt….awh such a sweet memory… love ya angels.
Good morning to you, Good morning to you
Love always
Stupid ass cat wants a rabbit tattoo! Can you clone a rabbit with a chicken?
dam cat
Doug, your contributions on Jim’s blog make thrilling reading for me because I feel I know you a little (and MC too) and I can see how you’ve grown, also especially as I’m involved to some degree. You are distinguishing between the two ‘worlds’ and ’seeing’ them with your spiritual eyes. When living from the world of the tree of knowledge, we are unable to see or even understand the other world, the world of the spirit or in biblical terms ‘the Kingdom’. A lot of those intellectuals that write in cannot understand what you have seen. They are trying to figure it out in their minds and of course this is the wrong source – it is only understood when we access our heart. You can tell the ’source’ people are accessing when you read through their posts. They either have LIFE or they are the walking dead! I remember when you said you ‘felt’ something I’d written but didn’t understand it, so you read it over and over again. That took humility, determination and a hunger for the truth. You have experienced this ‘higher’ dimension of REALITY because you had the courage to listen to your heart – you also had a brother who had ’seen’ this new world and had tasted a little of the blessings to be had as we enter into it. He had a taste, but there’s much more. JC said ‘blessed are they who hunger and thirst after perfection (righteousness) because they will be satisfied’. Keep hungering Doug! You guys in USA are about to have your Thanksgiving dinners, but I tell you, there’s nothing that can touch the satisfaction that comes with living from the source of the BREAD OF LIFE!
Doug
My neighbor (which one not sure) a couple of yrs ago released tame rabbits into the neighborhood. We now have all types of mixed rabbits running around my yard! Maybe you can send MC to Pittsburgh to have Dinner from the bountiful harvest that is RABBIT in my yard?
Peace
Hossenfeffer for ALL
Geo
lOVE THE VISION OF THE RABBITS IN YOUR YARD GEO… DOUG, NOT SO MUCH…HA HA HA HA HA!!
JUST KIDDING! I AM GOING TO CRANK UP THE MUSIC. HOW ABOUT A LITTLE OF THE SUPREMES FOR YOU MOMMA!!!
Happy Thanksgiving to Everyone! You all will be in my thoughts and all have my deepest gratitude for your continuing to make me laugh, cry, love and learn! Can’t wait to hear your stories of the day. Do give Aunt Barb my love and appreciation as well and to your whole family. I’m so very blessed to have such a host of cousins, aunts, uncles, neices, nephews that go on for generations. I love each and every one of you!!
Your southern cuz
Lisa
I do want to share just one story that happened during the last week of events. Kenny & I stayed at a nice hotel when we were in Florence because he wanted me to have a place of refuge to be able to go to when and if in need. He is my rock through this all. And even though he is and was so awesome as far as being there for me and giving me what I need, telling me I’m pretty or look good is not one of his strengths but it was my moms. She was the one that ALWAYS would tell me how good I looked even up to almost the last breath and certainly the last million times I saw her. Anyway, just saying, my mom is really about the only person that will tell me how good I look and that was just one of the many things I remember thinking that I was going to miss. The morning we were leaving the hotel to come back home, housekeeping knocked on the door and I answered and she said, I’m sorry, I was just checking to see if you all had checked out yet and I told her we would be in just about 15 minutes. And she said, you look familiar, do you live around here? I said, well I had moved to the Nashville area 3 years ago but had worked at Listerhill Credit union for almost 20 years, that maybe she knew me from there and she says, oh yes, that’s it, I worked at Shoals Tubular and youwould cash my check every Thursday and I said, yes, I remember and then I told her why we were there, that my mom had passed away, (side note) but I do like the way my little sister had it put in the paper, stopped dying and began living, Anyway she expressed her condolences and then she looked at me straight in the eye and in a very confident, strong voice, said, “You look Good!” I don’t know, I may be grasping at straws but I immediatley felt like it was a sign from my mom letting me know she was still with me and always would be.
Happy thanksgiving once again to all!
A BIG HAPPY THANKSGIVING TO YOU ALSO LISA, AND TO ALL AT BOLD GRACE RABBITS!
In the words of the great Joe Cocker “you are so beautiful”!
LOVE ALWAYS Doug
What a wonderful day today, as i sit with a belly full of love, I can still feel the shining warmth of the light of all the perfect moments. A light that will warm me on this old cold rainy night till my heart passes the beauty of my day off to the dreams of my of my undying heart.
Much of my family approached this day with dread of the pain they would have of the absence of of the moment that they would feel when the presents of a perfect soul was not there, but each arrived with the beauty of there hearts. They danced with the strength of a white stallion racing up a hill, they danced with the hearts of a lion protecting its cubs, and they danced with love of a man, a husband, a father, a son, a brother, grandfather, and a friend to all mankind.
They came in dread of feeling his absence, and i cant answer for there hearts if the left that way, but i can answer for my heart, and i can tell you he was with us.
I stood and listened to the beautiful words shared with all of us by my sweet nephew Cliff. He shared his own words written with the same beauty of his fathers hand, and he shared wonderful word of love hope and family, word written from the deepest part of his heart and mind. He also shared words written by his father that spoke the the same truth of love, words that stuck our minds, and hearts.
As i stood there by my brother looking out over the tender sweet souls of my family, tears flowing from every eye like lava from a mountain top, i chose to not let my mind feel his absence.
THERE WAS SUCH A DANCE GOING ON IN ME, as looked and listen to that moment. I MIND WAS BEGGING ME TO FEEL THE PAIN OF HIS LOSS, but i chose to feel his presents in my heart.
I know if you wont “get” this, because I’m not sure that i do, or at least, I’m not able to tell it to you in a way you will understand, but when i let my heart know that moment and denied my mind it desire to feel it, it was at that moment i felt a presents of Cliff within me, and he was pleased to feel mine. This is why i can tell you for sure, that the man we miss was the angel i felt in my heart tonight, AND HE WAS PLEASED.
Love will be found on thanksgiving between the first hug(which was my sis Nan) and your last kiss (which was my sis Nan) and the moments between, he was there Nan, and he was pleased.
love Doug
As i returned home tonight, I found MC all curled up asleep, still in his turkey suit. Beneath him i found a love letter he had written to Clucky.
I know that he would be embarrassed and humiliated to know that i would share it with you all, but after all he is just a cat, and a pain in my ass, so here goes.
Dearest Clucky;
All Though we are now separated by time and miles, my heart can feel you like the gentle breeze on a whisker, or a rain drop on your tender beek. Our love was broken by the uncommon desire to blend fur and feather of minds that cant flock together, nor purr of the warmth of our love, but my heart tells me that the beauty of love is not in your amazing plume, or in my sleek and warm pelt, but is in the beauty of our hearts…
He musta feel asleep here… maybe he is a pretty good sufa student
I love that cat, and it will be the last word…
There aint no way that stupid ass horny all romantic cats getting the last word on Thanksgiving day! Dam cat.
The time you spend in your mind traveling to the source of you pain will leave you lost under a street light on a dead end street, but the moment you chose to travel in your heart to the love you seek, will jettison you to the end of the universe in the blink of a eye.
Love the truth of your heart
The beauty of my day was interrupted by a phone call from my son, saying that he had stopped at the nursing home on his way out of town, and had found his grama upset, she began crying a told him that they were trying to get her to eat more then she wanted to.
My wife had made a plate of food for the visit we had plan to make, as we arrived we put a feast of all the dishes that the day had provided in front of her, and she was content.
What my son saw on his visit was a lonely and scared mind. A human mind in terrible conditions, being carried for as well as can be expected.
The fear and the loneliness that she must feel is requiring every bit of strength that she must have in her heart to live each day.
I believe that her her fear, her loneliness, her wanting for what she had, her anger for what she lost, and her desperation to change it, are all reasonable, expected feelings of the mind. I also believe that the only strength that she has to deal with all of these things found in her mind will be the true strength she had in her heart before.
When i was a young man i once ask my dad, “Is there anything that would make you want to commit suicide”? He said, “As long as i have my mind i would never want to do that”. Wow, you cant imagine how many times ive played that out in my mind. I finally came to the conclusion that he offered an aware to a son that he would never want to consider that way out of this life, he was smart enough to know that if i would survive anything as long as i had my mind, then if i didn’t have it, it wasn’t in my control anyway.
I do believe myself to be a survivor of this life, and i dont believe it would ever be right for me to end it by my own hand as long as i have my mind, but i think Dad i need to add a little something to that.
I will never take my own life as long as i have my mind, and heart. I know that this life can leave you desperate, lonely, afraid, but i also know the spirit of Gods strength that my wife’s mother sought every Sunday in her church she felt in her mind, and now its the strength of gods love in her heart she needs, and her mind cant feel it.
Love the truth in your heart
Doug
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I gently took MCs turkey suit off as he slept, he woke for a moment with teary eyes, and i softly placed him in my lap, and told him that the beauty in his heart would know the love he desperately wants to feel, as he drifted off into the dreams of the truth.
love always
We all can learn from the beautiful innocence of a child’s mind, we just have to take moment to feel the truth of it.
My 2 1/2 year old Rootbeer wore out by the excitement of life, and late for his nappie was convinced to sit at the table with the big people and have one of gramas chocolate chip cookies. A napkin was neatly placed in front of him and a single cookie was offered, but he wouldn’t eat it. He keep telling papaw something over and over till i finally understood that he wanted the whole plate of cookies beside him, so i put them all within his reach and he was happy.
It made me realize how many people have been offered a cookie, a bit of jesus love, if they did this or did that. A cookie that had conditions, such as keep it on the napkin, sit in your seat , and be silent, but i think jesus wants you to have the whole plate of his cookies, without any conditions.
Eat slow my friends because his cookie are sweet.
love always
I am growing tired now, and wish that this heart could bring forth the moments it feels on occasion, anytime. I wish i could have held my sweet sis in my arms the moment i felt the presenst of the love of her life within me, but i can tell you this for sure.. he was pleased, he is not lost, he is not absent, and the sprit of his soul is as warming as the sun on your face.
love Doug
Thanks doug for sharing your beautiful words. I’m so glad you all got to be together and share precious memories and just enjoy one another. Such a blessing. Even though my Thanksgiving was very different than the large goups with much family around, I believe it was still perfect for me. My sister Linda and her husband Jeff and children Nathan and Mitchell met Kenny & I at the cracker barrell and ate our Thanksgiving dinner together. I know some women really like to cook and others I’m sure just do it out of obligation or necessity but for Linda & I this was just perfect, no cleaning, no cooking, no preparing of the house, just good food and good company and the sharing of our love for each other.
To all the Cliff Hazelber family I’d just like to say that you’ve gotten the 1st thanksgiving over with Cliff being there but just in a different form. It’s tough since we’re such a people of sight and sound but thankfully we’re also a people of hope, love, grace, mercy and trust. I absolutley know he was there in spirit along with Uncle Tooday and the others gone on before just like my mom and dad were with Linda & I at the cracker barell and with Connie and her family and Jackie and his. That’s whats cool about the spirit world, they can be with us all at once even though we’re miles apart. Love you all so very much! Keep on dancing and singing!
Your southern cuz,
Lisa (Actually I was born in Indiana you know so I do go both ways
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Doug, I would like you to tell Cindy that I love her even though I don’t know exactly what she’s going through, I do know what it is like to have your mom in a nursing home and all the guilt, shame, and confusion that goes along with it. I know about the second guessing and the wondering can I do more, should I do different, are there more options, am I doing right, am I doing wrong, are they treated her the way she needs to be treated, do I need to take her into my home, do I need to just move into the nursing home to be beside her and how long? How long will she have to live like this? How long will I have to live like this? uh oh there goes the guilt again and on and on and on. And for the grandkids, man, I think its hard for them to see their grama in a whole different light but to please know she does still love them very much and they can still love her and also their mom is doing the very best she can for her and then some! It’s just such a difficult time for all involved but it doesn’t last forever so as crazy as it might sound, Seize the day! Please tell Cindy if she ever just needs someone to talk to or scream at or just cuss like a sailor, I am here for her. I’ve been there and if I can do anything to help her walk through this to just please let me know. Love you all!!
Holly crappolly, I’m on another path in my journey, and lovin it!
ARE YOU MADE IN THE IMAGE OF GOD?
Didn’t he say let us make them in my image? What did he mean? Dose that mean that God has a big nose like my brother Andy? Dose that mean that GOD has blonde hair like my angel Amy, ears that can lay back like a mad cat like my angel Mandy. Dose God snort when he laughs like my angel Tammy, or fart when he laughs like my angel Mindy. Dose he have bony legs like my angel Angie, or the perfect Smile like my angel Sarah (love my baby girl). Dose God get hemroids when he sits to long on that golden throne, and ponders his universe, or pimples if he shares to many chocolate chips cookies with his angels?
I dont think so… I think the true image of God would be of a man with thinning hair turning a bit gray. A man with hazel eye, that stand about 5′8″ in sandals, and is missing one joint in four of his fingers from the day of his birth.
As i said this is a new path in my journey, and I’m not absolutely sure I’m correct in my conclusions yet, but I’m thinkin right now if you got all you fingers you might not be as close to his image as i am.
more to come
love Doug
Mc is so pissed at me. I left my computer unlocked, and the mices downloaded his love letter and posted it on my space, and face book. Hes walking around in sunglasses,and calling me the evil master. He qouting something out of his kitty bible 1 catryinthians “The gossip of a master will leave his lap empty”.
What the hell dose that mean? Dam cat.
Mc is wanting to reconcile, but he is demanding the last word tonight, so as the good master i will afford him his moment.
MC SAYS: The twisted tails of the heartless. The cheesy breath of deception. The squeaky squeals of lies, are the distance between us and the image of GOD.
i LOVE tHat CaT…AND THAT IS THE LAST WORD!
That little freaking bastard is Rollin around purring with a smirk on his face, like he just set free the hearts of every dam mices, chicken, and coyote in the universe. ILL BE DAMMED IF ILL LET HIS LITTLE ARRAGANT ASS HAVE THE LAST WORD in a world God said I would dominate.
The twisted pain in your mind, the chilling burn of confusion, the cold walk in loneliness, the darkened fear of an endless night, is warmed with the pleasing comfort of the morning sun, is wrapped in the cotton blankets of truth, that the image of god is the love in your heart.
Love always
HES STARRING AT ME NOW WITH YELLOW EYES GLOWING WITH THE ANGRY FIRE OF THE SUN.
Stand with me my friends as i brave his wrath, and once again bring him back to the lap of love he so desperately wants.
love that cat in your heart,
Doug
Its US and THEM.
genesis 1:26
Then God said, “Let us make man in our image, in our likeness, and let them rule over the cats, the fish of the sea and the birds of the air, over the livestock, over all the earth, and over all the creatures that move along the ground.”
Who is the US, who is the them? DID GOD HAVE A PARTNER IN OUR CREATION?
more to come
love Doug.. I love walking in a dizzy daze of love.
There is a part of me that thinks that only the image of God that is within me stands above, and rules the hearts of THE CATS THE FISHES THE BIRDS THE LIVESTOCK, AND THE MIND OF THIS CLAY SHELL.
Hum… still walkin
love always
Not in Vien
If i can stop one hear from breaking
I shall not live in vain
If i can ease one life the aching
Or cool one pain
Or help one fainting robbin
Unto its nest again,
I shall not have lived in vain.
I believe Emily Dicickinson wrote this in 1830 feeling the heart of CIFF HAZELBAKER IN 2009
Love ya bro
MC SAYS, a master that is untruthful to the minds of its followers should be ex-cat-municated from the catthouleel church of the kingdom of cats.
I’m sorry.. but f.k that Dam cat, I’m gonna sellin his dam ass to the circus.
love always
Dam cat.
He wants that to be the last word, but the last word will be by the master of love.
They say what we are will never change, but who we are never stops changing. I think that the mind we live in will always be the same, but the heart we can feel will take us to places we cant imagine.
LET YOUR EYES GLOW YELLOW TILL YOU FEEL THE LOVE OF THE SON.
love always
The image of God, wow.. some will say the image of God is the ability of man to reason, some will say it the ability for man to have relationships… hum, i like that.. the thought that the love ive had for 40 years for a woman was the image of a God within me that i never felt, is pretty cool.
The image of God,, oh how sweet is that, and to know its who you are. To know that its an image that goes beyond your mind, and will let you love one person for forty years with out you feeling it, and all of mankind for all of eternity once you do.
love always
MC SAYS: You can squelch the squeak of the pain in the whine of a whimpering cry with a single bite.
WTF is his problem, dose anybody get his screwed up mind? I’m gonna have his bony ass admitted to the sisters of pussy sanctuary.
Dam cat
The night has a thousand eyes to feel the beauty in a single heart in the light of the sun.
The night has a thousand eyes,
and the day has but one;
Yet the light of the bright world dies,
with the dying sun.
The mind has a thousand eyes,
and the heart has but one;
Yet the light of the whole life dies,
when love is done.
William Bourdillion
Love is never done, Love never dies, Love never fails ,and its light is eternal.
love Doug
I WONT share YOU PAIN, any longer.
I had an invitation from someone tonight for me to share the pain in my life with them, and i was told that by that i would be able to feel better, less pain… hum. To take the pain in my mind and give it to some other mind, and for them to feel it in there mind, and then to have them reassure me that my pain is real, expected, and acceptable is to me only a comforting feeling that the minds of man are comforting, compassionate, and seeking to reaffirm there pain is justified in there mind.
I WONT SHARE YOUR PAIN ANY LONGER.
If i cant offer you the image of God with in you, if i cant help you see the “let US make them”, by God and his son, if i cant help you feel peace joy and the love you deserve, then i have no purpose, because my heart tells me to help your feel your pain is not in the image of God.
I wont share your pain any longer, but i will feel it, and i will be there to love you with every moment of it.
You are the perfect image of God with every breath you take, and he wants so much for you to know that.. he made you in his image.
Feel his love.
Doug
THE WALK
I wobble and i weave in my twisted mine
I whimper and i whine on crooked paths
I hobble to the end of time
I dance with the truth that lasts
I linger and limp to the light
I long in lasting loss
I touch the fright of night
I am suffacated in its moss
I hobble hurt in the night
I wounder free as a dove
I taste the truth of the light
I WALK proud in its love
LOVE DOUG… BRING IT ON BONY LEGS
mC SAYS: THE love you see in a rainbow, is the beauty found in the plume of a chickens tail.
I am so feed up with his horny romantic crap.
I’m having him neutered. The next time you hear from his bony ass will be in a higher voice.
Awh hes got a paw in the air like hes testifying, saying “I BELEVIE IN LOVE”: Ya gotta love him.
Hes saying to me “you promise me that last word master”
Dam cat is right.. i did
Mc is all curled up on my lap now after i softly explained the truth of his last words. I told him on my tomestone theses words will be written.
MC SAYS (MY CHRIST SAYS)
LOVE NEVER FAILS
1949————-
LOVE TILL IT HURTS.. FEEL THE IMAGE OF GOD
Doug
Ive gota life time of experaince as a man that can help you to develope a good work ethic. I can teach you how to dance with minds smarter then yours. I can show you how to survive walking in a snake pit. I can take you to the lies of life that will make all love you, and i can tell you of the phony truth of that journey.
You got a chance here kids to hear a truth i didn’t hear.
For every time in your life that you feel that you are above anyone else, for every time in your life you didn’t touch the one you could have, for every time in your life that you dont have time to smile, nod your head, open a door, say thank you, will be a time in your life you will regret.
For every moment in your life that you spend feeling anger, hate, guilt, unworthiness, will be wasted lies in your mind.
You got a chance here kids.
The bullshit of this life wont change because of the truth you can feel in your heart, the hate of mankind will continue. The vile nature of man will leave you wanting to feel the kingdom of God within you more and more, and you will be confused between your mind and your heart. The nature of man the snake pit we must walk in a place I could teach you to walk without fear,is not the place you want to feel.
YOU ARE MY BRAVE ANGELS, and you will dance the dance i am dancing.
With the truth i know, and you will make the angel of all that will be with you…Pleased
love Uncle Doug
This is for my latin hippy bony leg angel.
lord have mercy, lord have mercy on me,
lord have mercy, lord have mercy on me
though ive tried to find my baby boy
wont someone bring him home.
Love my stormy monday
My last word will be of the beauty of a wild flower, only seen by the desert sun. The perfect love of God, never felt by man. A beauty that stands in the wind, rain, and the storms. A beauty that stands naked for all to see. A beauty that withers, and cries alone, wanting only for a single eye to adorn its beauty. A flower that will plant its seed for the beauty of its heart to dance once again to feel the chance of the love of the son.
love always
I would really like to go, and my mind and body wants me to, but my heart lingers every night to feel the heartbeat I let die.
I know you cant see me, or feel me as i sit here, pulling my sleeves up, rubbing my head, staring off to fight the tears. I know you cant know the guilt of a boy that wasn’t man enough to protect the life of a perfect heartbeat. I know you dont understand the pain of two score and more,but please try to understand that the pain i feel at this time, and have felt for many years is in my mind, and the heartbeat that i cry for is holding my heart, and i know that.
The mind wants to feel your pain, but my perfect star wants to feel my heart, and let me know he is pleased.
I will sleep now
love Doug
Now that we have established that the true image of God will be found in all mankind with short fingers. How do we recognize it? What dose the image of God look like?
We are told that GOD created THEM, Man and Woman, male and female, we are told that he blessed THEM, and that he named THEM man, from those word I would be incline to conclude that all thought the body of man might have different genders, the image of God with in us will not have, and both genders are equal in Gods spirit.
We also know that God is spirit, the creator, and that we are the created in his image. We know that Jesus is the perfect example of what the image of God is, and from his example we can touch the sprit of GOD, and from that I would conclude that to touch the image of god, we must feel the sprit within us.
I believe I have only began to touch the image of God within me, much like what Audrey speaks of when she talks of the beautiful truth Metanoia ( a shift in the mindset, a view of truth in the heart, the soul , and the spirit) the image of God was give to all of us from the began, and to feel that likeness we must begin by knowing that the image of God will not be found in all the things that we are, but will be felt in all the thing we do.
The IMAGE OF GOD is felt by man when he feels love, peace, joy, of mankind in the same spirit of his likeness. I believe I have touched the spirit of God within me, and when I say touch, I mean that I have felt the tip of JESUS FINGER LIGHTLY BRUSH THE PALM OF MY HAND for a fleeting moment, and now I desperately want to feel his full embrace for all eternity. If the soft brush of his fingertip on the palm of my soul in a fleeting moment can offer such a magical and beautiful light in my heart, what will the full wisdom of his love be like? Wow.
As you ponder the image of God within you, as you try and decide if it’s the ability of man to reason , to plan, to fellowship, to walk upright, remember the image of God that is within you to feel, is a God of unconditional, limitless, undying LOVE.
STILL WAKIN TOWARDS THE LIGHT, STILL SEARCHIN FOR THE TRUTH!
Aint it fun.
LOVE ALWAYS Doug..Gooo000OOO Coo00OOOLTS
Thanks for sharing Doug, just beautiful! It is about finding that love within ourselves, isn’t it? God is love and if He made us in His image, than we are love. Where I’m at on my journey is I do believe that without being in touch with that love inside or God, which ever way one wants to say it, without that, though, I am very self-centered, that it is only when I tap into that love or power which, imo, is God, can I be a loving human. Lisa doesn’t really want to share or scarifice but the love within Lisa can’t help but. Does that make any sense?
It is great Lisa, and so wonderful to keep the mind(the heart of love) open to all the possibilities of Gods mystical and magical love.
Plato had a great analogy of the things we dont clearly understand.
Plato’s Cave Analogy
Plato used the analogy of the cave to illustrate his idea of forms. The analogy goes like this:
Imagine several prisoners who have been chained up in a cave for all of their lives. They have never been outside the cave. They face a wall in the cave and they can never look at the entrance of the cave. Sometimes animals, birds, people, or other objects pass by the entrance of the cave casting a shadow on the wall inside the cave. The prisoners see the shadows on the wall and mistakenly view the shadows as reality.
However, one man breaks free from his chains and runs out of the cave. For the first time, he sees the real world and now knows that it is far beyond the shadows he had been seeing. He sees real birds and animals, not just shadows of birds and animals.
This man is excited about what he sees and he goes back to his fellow prisoners in the cave to tell them about the real world. But to his astonishment, they don’t believe him. In fact, they are angry with him. They say the shadows are reality and that the escaped prisoner is crazy for saying otherwise.
POINT OF THE CAVE ANALOGY: According to Plato, the world outside the cave represents the world of forms while the shadows on the wall represent objects in the physical world. The escape of the prisoner represents philosophical enlightenment and the realization that forms are the true reality. Most people are like the prisoners in the cave. They think the shadows are reality. Philosophers, though, are like the man who escapes the cave and sees the real world. They have true knowledge.
keep on walk-in cuz, and keep on search-in.
love always Doug
Anytime I think I have all the answers and am just so sure of myself and use words such as ALWAYS and NEVER without bing open to others point of view, I shut myself off from truth and love, imo.
One thing I discovered these last few days is my brother and sisters and I are very different in many ways and if we’re left to just our own selves, our own thoughts and feelings without taping into that love, then we’d probably kill each other or at least hate each other but because of God’s love that is within each of us, we can put those differences aside and realize, nothing is so important to jeapordize loving one another. Nothing. That is the image in which I think we are created. Because of Him, I can love and serve and not just want to fill my own selfish desires or think MY way is best but be open to others thoughts and feelings. God is doing that for us and to Him I am eternally grateful!
That is so true Lisa, and i could say the same of my brothers, but we have an undying love for each other that goes beyond the mind of man, and into the heart of eternal love of something greater then the laws that confuse us.
your so beautiful cuz.. keep walkin
Doug
This for my Sis as we dance our happy dance in the wake of the tromphat Colts
When I think back on these times
And the dreams we left behind
I’ll be glad cause I was blessed to get to have you in my life
When I look back on these days
I’ll look and see your face
You were right there for me
In my dreams I’ll always see you soaring by the sky
In my heart there’ll always be a place for you
For all my life
I’ll keep a part of you with me
And everywhere I am there you’ll be
And everywhere I am there you’ll be
Well you showed me how it feels
To feel the sky within my reach
And I always will remember all the strength you gave to me
You’re love made me make it through
Oh I owe so much to you
You were right there for me
In my dreams I’ll always see you soaring by the sky
In my heart there’ll always be a place for you
For all my life
I’ll keep a part of you with me
And everywhere I am there you’ll be
Cause I always saw in you my light, my strength
And I want to thank you now for all the ways
You were right there for me
(You were right there for me)
You were right there for me
For always
In my dreams I’ll always see you soaring by the sky
In my heart there’ll always be a place for you
For all my life
I’ll keep a part of you with me
And everywhere I am there you’ll be
And everywhere I am there you’ll be
There you’ll be..
The walk dont have to be sad Sis, because everywhere you are there he will be.
LETS STUT THAT HAPPY DANCE FOR HIM.
Love ya Sis… we bad..we bad
Am i the only one the looks back on the comments they make, and is immediately sent back to a thirteen years old boy walking across a basketball floor at a sock hop to a pimply faced girl to ask for a dance only to have her drop her head, shrouding her face with her hair and shaking her head NO in rejection, and then making the long walk back to the snickering smirks of my friends?
It still at sixty years old only takes a misspelled word, or a an illogical stated thought for me to make that long walk in shame, but i will as long as i feel there is one pimply faced soul across my dance floor that might want me to make that walk. …then i will be triumphant … IT WILL NOT BE IN VIEN.
LOVE ALWAYS
I’m a pimply faced soul so NO IT IS NOT IN VAIN. Your help to me is tremendous and I do understand your feelings very much and share them as well. In fact, I had noticed I had bing instead of being and it bugged me!
I keep thinking that there will be a point that i have shared all that my heart has to give, and that all that have listened can sort the crap from the truth. I KEEP THINKING I HAVE ONLY SO MUCH TO SHARE, but i started this journey with nothing to share, but silly stories of a couple of brothers, and a love we felt.
My endless story will end much like it started with an endless love, and the endless truth to share of it.
As i dance my endless dance, i wounder who’s hand have i held. Who’s shy and innocent heart has accept my dance. Who’s beautiful and shinning face has look up into my face, HAS LOOKED INTO MY HEART, and stood and walked with me to the center of the dance floor, and twirled in the love of the light.
The pain of the denil of love has been felt in in this mind, but the beauty of shy and innocent love shrouded in the hair of a bowed head unable to look up to the light of truth leaves me still willing to walk across that long dark and lonely floor.
Did i ever tell you i was the lead sing in the band called the Rebels.. dose anyone wanta dance?
love always
Thanks Doug that says it all for me! I am gonna dance and I will dance like only Cliff is watching:)
I love you so much and I am so blessed to have the Hazelbaker family. You have seen me through the good times and the bad and you will see me through to the end and I will always be here for you.
Ive seen you sis, though the good and the bad, and i will be there for you to to see the good again.
always here for you..Doug
I go to another site of God loving souls, and over and over i hear there pain to feel God. They are people that have mostly left organized religion because it left them empty, they are very intellectual and have arrived to the place they are because there mind couldn’t logically accept the laws of there religion… hum
I am so lucky.. ya see i never had any expectations of God, and the only laws i lived by were the one that i thought i wouldn’t get caught breaking, or the ones i was taught as a little boy from people that i knew loved me.
I think its easier for me cause I’m not confused by a lot of B/S and i can sort the crap from the truth with a mind that feels God. Dose that make since?
TALK TO ME
love Doug
IF YA DONT TALK TO ME,, ill take you bony asses back to revelation, and ill be ridin the white horse.
love dOUG
WALK WITH A REBEL.. DANCE WITH A SKINNY BOY IN BELL BOTTOM HIP HUGGERS, TILL THE STARS OF THE NIGHT LET YOU SEE THE SON OF THE DAY, ILL TURN THE LIGHTS OFF TILL YOU YOU KISS THE MOMENT OF TRUTH.
love the moments