This is me: I’ve wondered those very same questions. And asked myself, what is it He REALLY wants or expects from me? Is there ANYTHING I am to do or say that will make what He did all worth it? The only answer I can come up with again is LOVE! Get out of myself, like He did, and think of others. Get out of my own way so God can work. For me, its about surrender, this has been so very hard for me lately, to surrender my will to His but I do trust Him that in His time it will all be as it is suppose to, maybe it is even now, it just doesn’t “feel” right or comfortable, hence getting out of my comfort zone. I’m sorry I’m just rambling but besides dealing with my moms death, I’m having some very heavy issues concerning my daughter and grandchildren, trying to do the tough love thing. Lately, I’ve just been thinking of the prodical son and how God did just give him his inheritance and then just let him blow it and God never ran chasing after him in the pig pen but waited patiently for the son to come back and say, I’m not even worthy to be your servant and then The Father kills the fatted calf, puts on the robe and ring. That’s what I’m waiting to do but I can’t go to the pig pen, I must wait and watch.

Luv you all

Lisa

This is me: Since the passing of my mother, I have wondered so much about the process. I know now that those last few days she was certainly going through some kind of change to get ready for her next life. About 12 hours before she passed, she was desperatley trying to tell me something. Her little voice was Sooooooooo Weak and I’d put my ear right up to her mouth and never could really understand what she was trying to tell me, but, I have no doubt she was trying to tell me something. Her eyes had tears in them. It could have just been I love you and goodbye but I do feel it was more than that. I just got this feeling there was some kind of truth she was trying to share and as far as what sould stop her? I believe for some reason God just does not want us to know till we get to that point. As long as we are still alive and well, that information He does not want out. I could be way off here but thats how it seems to me. So now I have a choice I can continue driving myself crazy wondering what could it have been or I can trust God that the whole thing was a perfect process that happened exactly the way it was suppose to. My belief system does tell me that she is in no pain now and there is nothing but abundunt joy love and peace for her and that gets me through the day!

I hope I am learning to love better each day!

That’s why I listen to all of you.

Although I am one of the OBG’S (Original Bold Grace) I have not commented here or posted on a regular basis for a long time. I would like to say as one of that Original 4 and as one of the OBG Grandfather’s here that ALL are welcome to comment and to say ANYTHING as long as it is without slander or hatred. Connie we are pleased and happy that you join us here. We hope that you stay around and add your thoughts but if not we understand. This medium is a very imperfect way of communicating in that we cannot know others tone when they respond and we then filter our thoughts and responses to what we have read through our own joys, hurts, emotions and beliefs. Then when we read what another has responded we become happy, angry or upset etc. My best educated guess is that ALL who participate here if given the chance to sit face to face would feel a closeness that the written word can NEVER provide.

I love you all!!!! And Doug PLEASE stick around!!! I feel the closeness of a brother when I read your words.

Merry Christmas All

Peace
Geo