Comments on: Grace Gathering 2007 Part#9 – Cilff @ End

By: Mindy

Mindy — Mon, 18 Jan 2010 14:58:37 +0000

Sarah,
I am sobbing right now over that song. I am definately crying for me that is for sure. The love that I have for my Dad is so incredibly magnified now that he is gone and so these tears and this pain are mine now to bare. Not a moment goes by that I don’t think of him and wonder what he is doing, but I know he will be there waiting for me when my time is up. I may have a long life ahead of me and it seems so difficult without him here, but he taught me well and he gave me the tools that I will need to understand the pains of life. Now it is up to me to continue on and pass them along to my baby girl.
I can tell you all one thing about my Dad… I completely understand why my Dad didn’t want to live life without my Momma. They had that Love story that you see in the Movie, “The Notebook”. Ever seen it?? Well, That’s the kind of Love they had. It was deep and rich. It was spiritual. It was a connection that we rarely find in each other. It had it’s moments, but the moments were few and far between because the love they had for each other always prevailed. My Dad died knowing that my Mom was the one who would be able to keep living without him. If roles were reversed my Father would not have made it this far without her. He knew she was strong, but he needed her in order to survive this life. My Father wasn’t afraid of Death and my Father was selfless and determined to help others see themselves the way Jesus saw us…my Father and Mother both succeeded in that they saw perfection in each other in their lifetime together.
Maybe that is our purpose. Maybe we need to remind each other in every opportunity we have to look a little deeper. The surface isn’t what is real. You have to go deeper and into the soul of another human to really find their truth…their core…their perfection and we all have a core…we all have a spirit.

By: Lisa Perry

Lisa Perry — Mon, 18 Jan 2010 05:49:07 +0000

Right on Doug! There is a huge difference in judging someone who commits or contemplates suicide and in someone who lovingly shares their own opinion, thoughts and feelings with someone who might be considering suicide and what I heard Doug say was most definitly the second one. I, for one, would never be judgemental about someone who commited such an act but if had an opportunity beforehand would hope that I could let them know how much they are loved and possibly help them to see a better way.

By: Doug

Doug — Mon, 18 Jan 2010 03:39:45 +0000

My last thought will not be about being judged, judgemental or judgement it will be about the the part of me that ive tried to share for nearly a year. The part of me that i let my family feel for 60 years, and let you feel for 9 months. The core of my being.. the most naked part of my self, the things that you have no right to feel from me, but every right to know from yourself.
You, no matter who you are, you, no matter what you think you are, you know matter what you have been told you are,,, YOU are the most perfect person that ever took a breath, YOU are the most precious person that ever walked this earth, YOU are loved from your first breath , and will be with your last, YOU ARE UNCONDITIONALY LOVED, and redeemed by a man that withstood all judgement.

I danced for you Cliffy, I cried for you Cliffy, and i was judged for you Cliffy…

brother Doug

By: Doug

Doug — Mon, 18 Jan 2010 02:44:43 +0000

Its easy to find fault in a heart that shares all that it feels, its easy to judge the naked that stand in front of you, its easy to watch them fall to there knees and feel your foot on there throat, but its hard to choak back your mind and wrap your arms around what you cant feel; but its what your heart wants.
love the truth

By: Kiara

Kiara — Mon, 18 Jan 2010 02:21:15 +0000

Thanks for posting these! Such a beautiful message.

By: Doug

Doug — Mon, 18 Jan 2010 01:44:21 +0000

The whisper in my words, the confusion in my tone,the judgement in my mind. Can let a slippery lie of your mind slip by your heart.
love always

By: Doug

Doug — Mon, 18 Jan 2010 01:32:05 +0000

MC SAY : A duck will quack on a muddy slope, a goose will honk on an icy pond and a chicken will crow in a briard nest, but a cat will purr with the sound of all of them.
what the fuck dose that mean…
Dam cat

By: Doug

Doug — Mon, 18 Jan 2010 00:16:52 +0000

GEO, I didnt say that I wouldn’t contemplate, or act on the thought of suicide. As a matter of a fact it has been a thought i have given consideration to and i have known it is one that i might even act on, but i also know that most who take that course of action to solve there problems are irrational in there thoughts, and it is there confusion of there emotion that allow them to use poor judgement in there actions, and all i was saying is that i will not participate in them making permanent bad decisions if i can stop it.
I wont judged others in there actions, but i will always use my judgement in there actions to help them if there confused.
love you bro
Doug

By: Doug

Doug — Sun, 17 Jan 2010 23:46:28 +0000

As we approach the fall of our lives we all begin to ask the questions. What would i have done different? What would i have changed? How would i live if i could designed my own life?
Unfortunately life dosent offer us that ability, we are structured by the environment we are taught to believe is the way we should live, and we try our best to survive in it.
My life has been so blessed that you might ask what would you want to be different in a different life Doug? and i would tell you that I would like to know jesus like I know him now as a young man, and i wouldn’t want to feel the love i have for my wife, and my children, like i do now,and i know they wont understand what I just said, but it is not there love i regret, it is the enormity of there love that would blind me from what i want.
I would like to be a man that would throw a knapsack over his shoulder, and let his feet take him wherever a child needs a kiss, a man needs a hand, a woman needs a hug.
There is a part of me that wants to sell my house, empty my bank account, and go to wherever beautiful hearts need love, but i wont… at least not in this life…… We become obligated to the lives of others, and we cant dedicate our love to all of mankind as much as our hearts want us to, so we watch with saddened eyes, and hold those we love close, as we cry.
I dont know if ill get another chance to live my life better, or if knowing i could have is enough,but i know i want to live it different the next time if i can.

Lift me like an olive branch, and be my homeward dove, and dance me to the end of love.

CRAZY HUH
Love Doug

By: Doug

Doug — Sun, 17 Jan 2010 00:47:12 +0000

That says it all BG..