Are You Free to Stand Alone?
"Freedom is to stand alone, unattached and unafraid, free in the understanding of desire which breeds illusion. There is a vast strength in being alone. It is the conditioned, programmed brain that is never alone, for it is filled with knowledge. That which is programmed, religiously or technologically, is always limited. This limitation is the major factor of conflict. Beauty is dangerous for a man of desire."
- J. Krishnamurti Krishnamurti Foundation Trust Bulletin 57, 1989
How do you know what is conditioned and programmed within you and what is the real you? I know I often get confused and angry at not knowing what is real? Do you want what everyone else has because it makes you feel as if you are a part of something? Are you afraid of being alone? We are afraid to listen to ourselves, but did you hear a whisper of yourself say, "I am not sure I agree with that?" I believe that is you trying to stand alone. I believe that whisper is you wanting to be free from the illusions of this world.
The definition for Stand Alone and Freedom are this:
STAND ALONE: Operating, functioning, or existing without additions or assistance; independent; able to be separate or separated.
FREEDOM: The condition of being free; the power to act or speak or think without externall imposed restraints.
When should we stand alone? When should we separate? Do you stand alone in your marriages? Do you stand alone in your Churches? Do you stand alone in your friendships? Do you stand alone in your college or High School classes? You are free to stand alone in your beliefs and in the things that make you an individual and you can still be engaged in this life with all its craziness :). Standing alone is to think on your own and be honest to who you are. You are giving so much more when you give it from your true self. When you give from your covered up self you are just giving back into the worldy illusions. You are giving them that fearful, scared, dishonest person. You are giving them the person who hides from the real self. You are giving them the person who hides because they think hiding protects them and keeps them safe. Do you bury yourself because it is easier. Are you afraid to be alone? Do you know how to look deep into your nature. I am here to tell you that there is nothing to fear…there is nothing to hide from and there is nothing to hide for. One of my favorite quotes written by Meredith Jordan is this:
"Whatever you have forgotten, you can remember. Whatever you have buried you can unearth. If you are willing to look deep into your own nature, if you are willing to peel away the layers of NOT-SELF you have adopted in making your way through the tribulations of life, YOU WILL FIND your true self is not as far removed as you think."
The illusions of this world do not have to stop us from forming what we really are. And what are we really?? WE ARE NOT HUMAN BEINGS GOING THROUGH A TEMPORARY SPIRITUAL EXPERIENCE.
WE ARE SPIRITUAL BEINGS GOING THROUGH A TEMPORARY HUMAN EXPERIENCE and it isn’t as complicated as we make it. We are simple creatures of perfection living on a magnificant and perfect earth that provides us everything we need. The sun warms our face. The light guides us through our days. The stars of the night give us peace. The trees shade us. When we are thirsty the water quenches our thirst and cools our skin. Awww and the wind…the wind is the little push we need in our sail. Our love will keep us moving forward. What more do we need? We are meant to love each other. We are meant to be happy. We are meant to stand alone. The only master of your mind is you. Do you want to be Free to Stand Alone?
I love you Mindy
“Awww and the wind…the wind is the little push we need in our sail” You are my wind today BG.
Ang,
if you could just touch my deepest feelings and see my truest thoughts you would know how much you inspire me and how much I trust and love you.
Uncle Doug,
I love that we are traveling together. I love simply knowing you are there looking out over your back deck at the trees and across the fields. Remembering all of your amazing moments with my Father, my mother, your neices and nephews. Remembering and looking forward towards a life filled with such incredible opportunities that we will share together. I love knowing that you are Free to Stand Alone and then share it with all of us.
You are an amazing Man. I love you
The self, the inner you, the beginning, the light within, the magic of your heart….your spirit. The truth that stands alone.
As I ponder what that means I try to understand what it really is. My thoughts take me to my beginning, and I envision my spirit beginning at the moment of my conceptions. I see thousands upon thousands upon millions of sparks of light converging on my newly forming body within the womb of my mother. A beautiful energy as pure as light, and as true as love. The flesh of my body being bonded together by truth and love of a million sparks of energy, and then born into a world as perfect as me.
My newly formed human body and heart has eyes that can see throw its bubble of truth with the clarity of crystal clear vision.
As the world touches me my vision becomes clouded with the perception of others till the bubble that was once clear is now becoming mirrored until all I can see is myself as I am perceived by others, and it is only my will to feel the perfect spirit I was born with that lets me see beyond the perception of others.
The transformation of living as those perceive you should to the beauty that your heart tells you should is as simple as the will to changing your mind. Those beautiful sparks of light that bond your spirit will ignite in the moment of metanoia that your will allows you to feel them, and you will never stand alone, because all others that feel your light will stand with you.
and dito to you to Mindy
love always
MC SAYS: A squirrel sees the crotch of a tree as place to store his nuts, a cat sees the crotch of tree as a place of safety, lightning see the crotch of a tree as a weakness, and man thinks even the word crotch is something to snicker at.
im telling you that cat is crazy!!!!
DAM CAT
The roots of your tree were born from the seed of love, the roots of your tree were nurtured from the earth of love, the roots of your tree are grown in the trunk of truth, and held in the limbs of love, and the roots of your tree will never die.
love always
STAND ALONE: Operating, functioning, or existing without additions or assistance; independent; able to be separate or separated.
BEEN THERE, DONE THAT, i like GOD and his bony ass son on my side, as i stand… but i can drop kick any man who dont think so.
love Doug
I LOVE MY BGS, there like little flowers painted on the inside of my mind, and there wanting to dance in the garden of life, but they dont feel the beauty of the flowers painted on the inside of GODS MIND, BUT THEY WILL, because they are full of love.
love always
MC SAYS” I will walk by a mouse who sits calmly with its legs crossed, i will go by a ground squirrel that lays sleeping, but i will devourer a baby rabbit that squeals in fear of me.
dam hateful cat
THE FEAR THE PAIN THE ANGUISH THE GUILT, is all in your mind, there to beat you, to eat you , to devour you, and love will walk right by it to hold you.
love always
SOME ONE ASK THE QUESTION, why did god give man nipples, and i think i have the answer, but id really like to hear your thoughts first.
talk to me GEO
I think i know the answer cause i dont smoke, and MC SAYS , i am able to see beyond the eyes of common man, and i should give a hint of what the answer is…. so i will give you a clue, and wait patiently on your god given answer.
Lust is in the living, desire is in the flesh, craving is in the mind, but truth is in your heart, and the answer is…. awh what more can i say, what should i say, will i say???
you tell me..
love Doug
There is a part of me that is a silly Doug, but there is a part of me that is never silly, and it is always in the words of even the silly Doug, and rearly seen in the other Doug, but allways felt in the DOUG I KNOW.
My bgs may never know the DOUG that is held between the walls of my life and death, but my love will be felt by them, and my bgs will will dance different then they would have.
My Sarah will be a princess, My Doug will be a prince, and my baby girls will feel love that they didnt know could touch them, and i will die with that beauty in my heart, knowing that they will share that with all that they touch.
The circle of the universe is touched by each of us and never dies. The love of our hearts is wanting to explode with the light of a billion tears, and the warmth of trillion years, and the love of a moment.
I DONT WALK IN FEAR, between the walls of birth and death because i will never die, and i will always love.
stand alone with me
love always
MC SAYS: It is better to lay silent in the deep woods surrounded by fog all night then to walk into the dew covered arms of a coyote.
dam cat
The chill of your night, the fear of your day, the cry of all of it can be wiped away with a moment of the truth that you are loved, and always have been from your first breath.
love the truth
The color of fear is black, the color of hate is red, the color of love is white, and the color of truth is clear.
Color me true
love
My last thought tonight will be of how hard it is to love the color clear. When i was a young father i ask my family what there favorite colors was, my daughter said blue which is mine also, my wife said green which i hate, then my son said clear which we all laughed about until now, and now its my favorite color also…. silly boy.
dam u boy
Ill wake tomorrow with bad breath like you, and scratch my ass on the way to take a pee like you, ill wipe the crust from my eyes like you, and fart on the way to do all of that like you, but I also know that if tonight I dont wake to do any of that it is ok because ill wake in the arms of love, and he likes my bad breath.
crazy huh?
love always
There is something in me that keeps saying there is something more i can tell you, but my mind keeps telling me to shut up, , i dont know where to go in your bible that will let you feel loved, i dont have the words from Proverbs Paul or the poetry of any part of the bible to let you know your loved, i just have the bony ass wisdom of my heart that tells me your so special, and that you dont need to know much more then that.
love is yours to feel, love is yours to feel, love is yours to feel
love Doug
There is part of me that thinks the reason i have talked so much to you is that i have held so much in me, but i know that i didnt have anything to say to you till i felt my heart, and i didnt feel it till it was broken.
I dont know if that was by design by my brother or by God, or if both are watching me in amazement saying what the fuck. I know this is not me! i would rather be eating potato chips and putting paperclips on MC TAIL, I would rather paint smiley faces on aunt Cindy’s boobs and burn chicken wings at midnight, then to tell you to find the love in God.
YOUR DADDYS MESSED ME UP
I need a secret day.
its your turn.. bgs
bg#1.. a eagle sunning quiet in the tree tops of love
bg#2.. a angel with wounded wings kissing stars
bg#3.. a falcon flying with a lions heart
bg#4.. a spirit floating on clouds of truth
bg#5.. a baby bird touched by the love of a thousand feathers
bg#6.. a love tasted only by God in the nest of a condors universe
bg#7.. a soft truth of love held in firm hands of butterfly wings
SECRET DAY MASTER…LOVING ALL OF YOU
My experience in the world of organized religion has been limited to a few years that I barely recall. It seems to have had very little impact on most of my life with the exception it gave me some basic characteristic that served me well. I’m not sure if they came from the laws of god or man, but I have lived a life by the principles that you should not lie, cheat steal, and all of mankind is equal. So for me to understand those that have lost faith in God , or those that have abandoned there religious faith is difficult, unless I compare it to what I do understand and that is another type of organization call corporations .
Much of my life my job was to manage people. To simplify my duties is to simply say my job was to get people to meet my goals regardless of what there’s were, and my goal was to meet my superior’s goal, which was to make a profit.
I was taught to be forward thinking and to look for the paradigm shift that would get people to do more then they had done before, some of my tools included fear , guilt, trust, false expectation, and always telling them that there company loved them, and would take care of them.
Most of them just wanted to feed there families and find the happiness that came from being giving a piece of the corporate profit.
As I listen to so many that have lived there lives in organized religion, there stories sound so familiar to me. It seems that all I would have to do is change the names of the players and the stories would be the same.
My story ends telling you that I will never work for man again believing that he loves me as much as he loves his money, but ill work for God knowing that he loves me as much as he did his own son. My story ends never trusting man not to hurt me, but believing that God will love me know matter how good or bad I am at my job.
You only have one boss, and he lives in your heart.
love always
And im still waiting on an answer to the nipple thing…..CHICKENS!
love always
I think what i was trying to tell you is that you were born in the spirit of love,know matter how it started,… by accident, by confusion, by rape,by hate, or love, and you have grown into the perceived acceptance of man, but you are still the perfect moment of love, regardless of all that you have felt from your first breath,.. and you are a breath , a moment , a heartbeat away from knowing how perfect you are…take a deep breath, and look throw that mirrored bubble of perceived lies, and see the love that holds you beyond your last breath.. you can trust it.
THERE IS NOTHING SILLY, CRAZY, OR CONFUSED, about that.
Love Doug
all right one more clue on the nipple thing… lets make them in our image.. plural{{{{{}}}}. lol… chickens.
love Doug
Matthew 7
13″Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it. 14But small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life, and only a few find it.
I think that wide gate is the one that most of us find with our last breath, and the hell is the life we live before we find it, and the narrow gate is the one we find before our last breath, and the heaven that is ours to know now…. but what do i know when i was 13 i stole grape nehi from the gas station next to the church of christ after services ever Sunday, and never got caught, maybe gods forgot?… hum lol
love the truth
ok one more clue.. on the nipple thing..the differance between man and woman is only felt between man and woman, never by there babies.
come on chickens
love Doug
MC says: I have loved Burmese beauties, i have held the paws of himalayan lovelies, i have rubbed whiskers with persian purrrrrers, and i know there is no pussy i couldnt love, but i didnt know i could love a chicken till my master showed me that all of creation was worthy of love.
How long can a cat live in freezer?
Dam crazy cat
my last thought will be of whether my last words, or this one or any one of them is worth sharing, and whether you have any that might take a scared broken heart and offer it a moment of love, or would you rather lay silent till you find the big ass gate that you deserve.
how long do you want to wait to feel heaven. if i can steal grape soda at thirteen and tell some one there loved like me at 60, why cant you?
you ain’t gonna get to heaven before me, and maybe we can stand together on the inside of that little gate.
I dont have no bible telling me that…just God.
and that ain’t crazy
love always
You’ve stood your whole life trying to figure this crap out, you’ve looked at me, and ive looked at you, and you’ve seen what you were taught to perceive, as i was, but ive dropped the vail of lies and i see you naked, and you are beautiful.. close your eyes and see me, as you want god to see you, and our hands will be held in the light of love.
Stop thinking there is more to life then the beauty you felt the first time you saw a butterfly, or felt the kiss on our fevered brow by your mother. IT IS THAT PURE LOVE THAT IS WITHIN YOU TO DANCE WITH FOREVER, or to long for till your last breath.
I can feel it in you as i sit here, across miles, mountains, oceans, continents, like my finger is on our lips feeling your breath, like my ear is on your chest feeling your heartbeat, and my hand is in yours as we walk into the light of truth.
dance to the end of love
Doug
What us BG’s want to know is who is who??? We are all kind of wondering. Is it in order of age?? LOL
Luv you B.U.D.
I am totally a chicken btw!
bg#1.. a eagle sunning quiet in the tree tops of love>Bony legs
bg#2.. a angel with wounded wings kissing stars>Snorter
bg#3.. a falcon flying with a lions heart> Mad cat
bg#4.. a spirit floating on clouds of truth>Freakin farter
bg#5.. a baby bird touched by the love of a thousand feathers>Performer
bg#6.. a love tasted only by God in the nest of a condors universe>Sweet love
bg#7.. a soft truth of love held in firm hands of butterfly wings> Commander
Seven angels loved like the three Mary’s of Jesus…I love chickens.
Uncle Doug
It is obvious to me that most of your are in fear of delving deeply enough into your mind to understand why men have nipples so I will offer you my enlightened reasoning for this seemingly unneeded characteristic of man.
It is my belief that as God was sitting around on a cloud in his universe, and skipping stars across the pantheism, that he looked at Jesus and the holly ghost and said,” he guys lets make them in our image” so they gave each of us the same beautiful characteristic.
They gave us each two eyes, one nose, to ears, ECT. ECT. The reason that they did this was so that we would be mirror images of each other, and as we looked at each other we would see the image of GOD. They wanted use to see each other equally in the beauty of his creation, and to love each other with the same love he has for us. So there in lays the reason for man having nipples.
I also believe that the very small differences that we have in our anatomy (and as a man I use the word small with a big S) were given to us so that we can each be equally be part in the creation of new souls for God to love
This is only my opinion but I will be submitting my thoughts to the POPE, and to The Evangelical Theological Society for review.
Awh the magic of mushrooms!
Love always Gooo COLT!
Doug, thanks for your openess and hilarity. Mindy, thanks for a great post that makes us ask ourselves tough questions.
Great post Mindy. I totally agree. I am an only child and thereby know how to stand alone. It was religion that, for 59 years, taught me to never stand alone, but to rely on what others said, did, and the like. That kind of indoctrination will stifle the feelings, the very nature of the “true self”.
Thank you Mindy
I needed that it was awsome
jenn
Wow Mindy can’t believe I am just now reading this. Must be because now is the right time for me to hear it. I love you!!