Lost In the Thought of You by Mindy Hill
OK, so me and my family always laugh about how I can’t rhyme (which will make sense later)…I sincerely accept this about myself, but enjoy writing regardless. Before my Dad died I would just sit and these wonderful feelings would pour out me and I would write, but yesterday I wrote something because inside I felt like I was screaming. I didn’t understand my feelings? Have you ever done that? I would literally be listening to someone talk to me and I would have nothing to say, but instead would be silent outward and screaming inside my head. So, I had to write…I just had to write!
It seems lately it has been difficult for my heart to put into words what it is I am feeling about anything really, but yesterday was different. I had this sudden urge to express my frustrations. I had acknowledged some feelings that were apparantly overwhelming me, hence the screaming in the head? The tribulations of life can be overpowing sometimes. Almost as if someone shut the door and closed the blinds on the beauty of what is. For me the beauty of what is shouldn’t be tricky. It use to be very obvious…I have amazing people to share my life with. I have the beauty of nature that surrounds me. I have a roof over my head and I have a job to pay the bills. It should be enough, but my human mind right now only wants to focus on what was and what could have been rather than what is. I guess this is a point in life where people go to God or go to mediation or go to wherever or whoever it is that is higher in hopes that it will bring them peace or salvation. However you go about getting through this life do it with your eyes wide open to all the possibilities that life will bring you. Do your best and try NOT to be afraid of it all.
You have the opportunity to be a powerful influence on the lives of other people, no matter your position in life.
~ V.J. Smith
This one is for my Dad…
Lost In the Thought of You
by Mindy Hill
My Hand trembles as I write to you
My tears smear the ink
I am a permutation of what I once was because you’re gone.
The words won’t flow to you
They can’t find their way.
The words won’t flow
I can’t find my way to you.
I’m lost in the thought of you.
Everyday done perfunctorily
The world spins round as I stand still
I wake each day and do it all again.
The words won’t flow to you
They can’t find their way
The words won’t flow
I can’t find my way to you.
I’m lost in the thought of you.
The paper in my hand
I want to send it to where you are.
Instead I recklessly write these words to clear my head.
Relief soiled by tears?
Is their remedy in the words?
But I am at the edge when I recall your smile.
Your words flow through me
They found their way…they found their way
And tomorrow I’ll be lost in the thought of you.
Relay for Life/ Team Love Never Fails
I wanted to let everyone know about our team LOVE NEVER FAILS that will be walking for the Relay for Life at the Wayne county Fairgrounds in Richmond, In., on May 22nd-23rd.
In honor of my Dad, Cliff Hazelbaker our Team will be walking from 9:00am to 9:00am the next morning working hard to raise money for the American Cancer Society.
Our Reason to Relay
The American Cancer Society Relay For Life is more than just an event to our team. It is our opportunity to help save lives from cancer by supporting the American Cancer Society.
It’s amazing to think that millions of people will be diagnosed with cancer this year. My Father Cliff Hazelbaker was one of them in 2009.
But, by taking part in Relay, We are helping the American Cancer Society save lives by:
- Helping people stay well by helping them take steps to prevent cancer or detect it early, when it’s most treatable
- Helping people get well by being in their corner around the clock to guide them through every step of their cancer experience
- Finding cures by funding groundbreaking research that helps us understand cancer’s causes, determine how best to prevent it and discover new ways to cure it
- Fighting back by working with lawmakers to pass laws to defeat cancer and rally communities worldwide to join the fight
Please support Our efforts by making a donation in honor of Cliff Hazelbaker or by joining our Relay For Life team called Love Never Fails. Together, we have the power to help create a world where cancer can no longer claim another year of anyone’s life.
http://main.acsevents.org/goto/love.never.fails
Our Unique Journey! by Cliff Hazelbaker
I wrote the following post December 30th, 2006 at my old site.
Just as God sent Abraham on a journey that he was completely unaware of where it would lead him, we too have been sent on our own journey and each of us must find our way. Every journey is unique with its own unique set of circumstances. Who is able to understand such a unique journey as this? The answer is easy and yet many still do not understand it.
The answer I am referring to is “God”. Only God knows where we came from and where we are going, and yes, he knows every step in-between. I am not saying we can’t help each other along the way because I know this pleases God when we love one another and seek to lighten the load of a burdened soul. But there is a big difference in helping another fellow traveler and forcing him to walk with us
Abraham’s great journey is filled with personal mistakes, bad judgment, and even weak faith, and yet he is held up as an example of the kind of human faith God would have us all to have. Was that faith based on law? I think not, because the law didn’t even come into play until many years after Abraham. Just what was it based on then? Paul says it best in Romans 4 talking about just what did Abraham believe?
Rom 4:5 But to him who does not work but believes on Him who justifies the ungodly, his faith is accounted for righteousness.
Abraham believed in a God who would justify the ungodly. I too have come to this same faith. But one major difference I have with most institutional churches is that I believe he justifies the ungodly regardless of whether they have faith or not. Now I’m not saying faith is not required, I’m just saying no human being outside of Jesus Christ has the faith that justifies the ungodly.
Eph 2:8 For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God: 9 Not of works, lest any man should boast.
Did you get the part in the verse above that says it is not of yourselves? It is a gift from God. I have yet to meet the man or woman who would tell me their personal faith was strong enough to make them right with God, and yet we hear pulpit after pulpit proclaiming that you must have personal faith to be acceptable to God. Well, my friends, we do have faith, all of us, and it is the Faith of Christ. It is a gift to every man.
Gal 3:22 But the scripture hath concluded all under sin, that the promise by faith of Jesus Christ might be given to them that believe.
Paul says that the promise by faith OF Jesus might be given to all them that believe. Yes, it is given to them that believe, and just who is that? I am becoming more and more convinced that none of us living in the flesh has any personal faith of our own that has any power what so ever to justify us before God. What we have is HIS FAITH. He is the one that believed, and he has been given the promise of the Father. And as in Adam ALL died, so in Christ ALL shall be made alive. All will believe. All will fall down on their knees in absolute praise to their Savior. As Tim King says: God doesn’t shove us on our rebellious faces — he melts our clueless hearts.
All the prophecies of old proclaimed a Savior who would rescue all. We know that even God himself proclaimed his purpose in sending his son into the world..
1 John 4:14 And we have seen and testify that the Father has sent his Son to be the Savior of the world.
Yes, we journey on, each of us on our own unique path. I am convinced we will never fully understand all the difficulties along the way, or the suffering that we both see and experience. But I am also convinced that when we close these physical eyes for the last time we will then understand maybe for the first time what LOVE really is.
And I should add one more small observation.
If I am right then it means God is all powerful and did overcome every obstacle that man threw his way, rescuing even the worst of us from our sin, and he did that without our help completely through the efforts of his Son Jesus Christ.
If the institutional church is right, then even by the most liberal standards more then 80% of all human beings will be sent to an eternal hell to suffer for ever and ever because they didn’t have the right faith. There are now at least 30,000 different branches of Christianity. Is it possible that mankind will ever get it right on his own?
Impossible with man, but with God all things are possible.
It Already Happened!
For those of you thinking or concerned about the "second" coming RELAX!!
It already happened 2010 years ago!
1st Coming = from the womb of woman
2nd Coming = from the grave of death
Hell Greater Than Redemption ?
The majority of Christianity believes that Hell is greater than The Redemption that took place on The Cross. Listen as Mike and Glenn from The Gospel Revolution Webcast discuss it.
Are You Free to Stand Alone?
"Freedom is to stand alone, unattached and unafraid, free in the understanding of desire which breeds illusion. There is a vast strength in being alone. It is the conditioned, programmed brain that is never alone, for it is filled with knowledge. That which is programmed, religiously or technologically, is always limited. This limitation is the major factor of conflict. Beauty is dangerous for a man of desire."
- J. Krishnamurti Krishnamurti Foundation Trust Bulletin 57, 1989
How do you know what is conditioned and programmed within you and what is the real you? I know I often get confused and angry at not knowing what is real? Do you want what everyone else has because it makes you feel as if you are a part of something? Are you afraid of being alone? We are afraid to listen to ourselves, but did you hear a whisper of yourself say, "I am not sure I agree with that?" I believe that is you trying to stand alone. I believe that whisper is you wanting to be free from the illusions of this world.
The definition for Stand Alone and Freedom are this:
STAND ALONE: Operating, functioning, or existing without additions or assistance; independent; able to be separate or separated.
FREEDOM: The condition of being free; the power to act or speak or think without externall imposed restraints.
When should we stand alone? When should we separate? Do you stand alone in your marriages? Do you stand alone in your Churches? Do you stand alone in your friendships? Do you stand alone in your college or High School classes? You are free to stand alone in your beliefs and in the things that make you an individual and you can still be engaged in this life with all its craziness :). Standing alone is to think on your own and be honest to who you are. You are giving so much more when you give it from your true self. When you give from your covered up self you are just giving back into the worldy illusions. You are giving them that fearful, scared, dishonest person. You are giving them the person who hides from the real self. You are giving them the person who hides because they think hiding protects them and keeps them safe. Do you bury yourself because it is easier. Are you afraid to be alone? Do you know how to look deep into your nature. I am here to tell you that there is nothing to fear…there is nothing to hide from and there is nothing to hide for. One of my favorite quotes written by Meredith Jordan is this:
"Whatever you have forgotten, you can remember. Whatever you have buried you can unearth. If you are willing to look deep into your own nature, if you are willing to peel away the layers of NOT-SELF you have adopted in making your way through the tribulations of life, YOU WILL FIND your true self is not as far removed as you think."
The illusions of this world do not have to stop us from forming what we really are. And what are we really?? WE ARE NOT HUMAN BEINGS GOING THROUGH A TEMPORARY SPIRITUAL EXPERIENCE.
WE ARE SPIRITUAL BEINGS GOING THROUGH A TEMPORARY HUMAN EXPERIENCE and it isn’t as complicated as we make it. We are simple creatures of perfection living on a magnificant and perfect earth that provides us everything we need. The sun warms our face. The light guides us through our days. The stars of the night give us peace. The trees shade us. When we are thirsty the water quenches our thirst and cools our skin. Awww and the wind…the wind is the little push we need in our sail. Our love will keep us moving forward. What more do we need? We are meant to love each other. We are meant to be happy. We are meant to stand alone. The only master of your mind is you. Do you want to be Free to Stand Alone?
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