It was rough letting go and relying on myself to figure this one out. I always turned to my Father for help. I always relied on his wisdom to get me through tough times and I didn’t know where to go. I felt like a kid at K-Mart who got lost and was wondering around the store scared out of her mind. I was use to driving over to Richmond where I could go see that simple look I needed in my Father’s eyes. He could always open my heart and my mind. He always had a way of helping you find in yourself just what it was you were looking for… Most of the time your inner strength could be found. I remember thinking “what the hell am I suppose to do now?”

When I was going to Church I was suppose to rely on the Lord to get me through the rough times. I was supposed to rely on the lord to show me the way. “The Lord” never did anything for me and the Church just scared the shit out of me. I chose to rely on my Dad to help me find my way and when he died I realized that we can rely on each other to a certain point, but ultimately, we have what it takes to find our own way. There is always Love that lives inside of us. I have met so many wonderful people. Amazing people that never had a father or a mother to rely on and yet they found their own way. For me it took losing my Father for me to realize that I can find my own way and if you wanna get biblical I am the way, I am the truth and I am the light…we all are.

I see that out of the ground a flower will grow. I also know that I can have my body turned to ash and the earth will absorb it back into that very same ground that the flower grew out of and in the beautiful cycle of life my BEAUTIFUL body will help the next flower grow. That flower serves some sort of purpose on earth and so do I and so does every other living thing. It is so easy to quit fearing death. We can’t change it and it is going to happen. I will die having no regrets and having no shame. I was made exactly the way I was meant to and no one can control that. I can hear the Beatles singing now…”We are only waiting for the moment to arrive.” Some of us are waiting to die and some of us are living to die. I choose to live so that I can die.

Put your bibles down and dip your feet in the water. Lay back on the grass, enjoy the cool water and just be. Live for the day.

Salvation on the other hand is NOT A FREE GIFT. Salvation is not of the spirit as Redemption is. Salvation is of the soul i.e. the mind, the will and the emotions that are in the here and now. Salvation can be permanent (lifetime) or it can be temporary and lost on a moment by moment basis.

So what is the price and cost of Salvation to the soul i.e. the mind, the will and the emotions?
The cost is the faith you have in your personal faith. The price is the belief you have in your belief. The only way Salvation of the soul i.e. the mind, the will and the emotions can be permanent is if you give up believing and trusting in your faith and belief in God! You must come to the end of your personal faith and belief in God in order to find real faith and that is not of yourself but of Christ. The requirement for you to believe and have faith ended at The Cross. And as well it should have because as Jesus said if you faith was only as big as a mustard seed you could tell a mountain to throw itself into the ocean and it would obey. The church teaches that Jesus wanted us to have our own faith. The truth is He was teaching us that we had NO FAITH AND NEVER WOULD!!! He at the Cross ENDED the requirement to believe and included ALL in Redemption. And when we know without a doubt that our Redemption is sealed and that all of mankind’s Redemption is sealed then we can come to the point of saying with confidence, " I NO LONGER BELIEVE IN MY BELIEF AND I NO LONGER HAVE FAITH"! And we will be saved!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

GOOD NEWS

Selah
Geo

In a moment of weakness Me and my sister Tammy had decided to go into his office and rummage through some of his things which is something that is still very hard to do and of all the days to do it it just so happens that today we stummbled upon a treasure that he had left for us to find!! Dad had started a book! I want so badly to share with the world what he had started, but I can only bring myself to pleasure you with a small part in hopes that one day we could finish his book for him and give the rest to you.

He was an amazing man. He was filled with such great hope and love. He wanted everyone to know how perfect they were and that God loved them unconditionally. He wanted to shout it from the roof top and I think that is where this book came in to play. It was a way for him to shout it out.

I want to share with you his introduction.

INTRODUCTION

I do not know if this book will be of interest to even a single soul, but I am still driven to write it in defense of the power of people dedicated to loving each other for a lifetime.  I see so many young people wanting to love, and facing so much negative discouragement from this world in which we live.  Someone must let them know that they can face every storm.  They can endure every trial.  They can suffer all sorts of difficulties, and still remain people of love. And this “Love for a Lifetime” is not dependent on how much money they have, or how successful they are, or what title is in front of their name.  “Love for a Lifetime” is the product of realization, decision, dedication, and desire.  This book is not only for the young who desire love, but even for those who seem to have lost sight of a life of love.  No matter where you are now in your relationship to this powerful word “Love”, stop, and ask yourself the simple question: Is it possible to Love for a lifetime?  All that is needed is to start there, and as you move toward that goal you will realize that it is a goal worth working for.  You will find an inward peace and happiness that can come only from building a lifelong relationship with the only thing that truly lasts.   I was fortunate to witness my parents love each other passionately for a lifetime, revealing to me something more powerful then their love for each other, but the real power was their love for love itself, and to see the glory of that love which could not have been purchased with all the gold in the world.  I am also fortunate enough to continue with their example, and I fully expect to love my wife and to be loved by her for my entire lifetime.  This book is a “Can Do” book to encourage all my fellow travelers on this earth to make love a priority.  Not only in marriage, but also in every relationship you have.  It is even possible to love your enemies, because the more you love, the more you want to, and finally there can be no room in your heart, except to love.

At the end of this life when we are at the door of being reborn and we have one foot in this world and the door is opened with the other foot on the other side…we turn and face the tears of those that we are leaving behind and without shedding a tear we are filled with all of the answers we have ever wanted to know and that is that all of the money in the world didn’t matter. None of the knowledge of politics or religion mattered. None of the judgements mattered and we realize in that very glorious moment that the only purpose we had and the only thing that mattered was the knowledge of Love and I truly believe it is the only thing we take with us in the next life. 

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Peace

Geo

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You have been warned!

Peace
Geo

 It seems lately it has been difficult for my heart to put into words what it is I am feeling about anything really, but yesterday was different. I had this sudden urge to express my frustrations. I had acknowledged some feelings that were apparantly overwhelming me, hence the screaming in the head? The tribulations of life can be overpowing sometimes. Almost as if someone shut the door and closed the blinds on the beauty of what is. For me the beauty of what is shouldn’t be tricky. It use to be very obvious…I have amazing people to share my life with. I have the beauty of nature that surrounds me. I have a roof over my head and I have a job to pay the bills. It should be enough, but my human mind right now only wants to focus on what was and what could have been rather than what is. I guess this is a point in life where people go to God or go to mediation or go to wherever or whoever it is that is higher in hopes that it will bring them peace or salvation. However you go about getting through this life do it with your eyes wide open to all the possibilities that life will bring you. Do your best and try NOT to be afraid of it all.

 You have the opportunity to be a powerful influence on the lives of other people, no matter your position in life.
  ~ V.J. Smith